Broken Lyrics

I suffer from Dissociative identity disorder and I'm very aware of it

I sustained severe brain injuries from multiple concussions

I've had multiple attempts on my life

I'm depressed, i'm anxious and i burn trees everyday

I have P.T.S.D

Pretty ****** up for a black man trying live a happy and positive life

Work a nine to five, hold down a family

Shout out to my Twin-flame Lioness on this one

Jokervelli

Life ain't what it seems to be

It ain't all cracked up like they make out g

Truth being, i've seen shit that I shouldn't of seen

At a young age desensitised my whole being

Maybe i should of been, locked up for life

In my dreams I see myself so much doing life

I can't get out of the visions

Locked up in my own mental prison

Restricted from visits and making all my millions

Waking up in sweat and tears, I can't tell my peers

Why I am mentally tortured what is it I truly fear?

The witch of the Blair left her cold hearted stare

This my my own conviction mood swinging, anger building

I aint depressed or a victim, I see demons

I'm alone and I need you

I'm just going through some shit

What is this that I'm going through?

I can't tell what I'm going through

My mind stressed what I'm going through

Who am I and what I'm going through?

Evil things am I gonna do?

God help me through this pain

Through this storm and the rain

Let me see a brighter day, forgive me

Please hear me when I pray

Can you tell me what I'm going through?

I'm alone with what I'm going through

I'm in denial I feel stressed, but I'll never slit my wrist

Not into suicidal shit

If i see a psychiatrist, they'd probably write me a prescription

The way I feel cant be cured by no medication

Its my mind trying clear all the ill and poison

Seasons change, friends fade and avoid me

I get less love, down here, every year

Mr Billy no mates, until my mind degrades

I smoke weed everyday just to cloud the pain

Fall asleep, wake up stressed out the same pain

Do you know what it's like living life in the shade?

Look for god every night that i pray

You made me this way

You say that everyone can change

I'm trying real hard but I'm feeling enraged

Lord Jehovah as my witness

I once performed an exorcism

In the name of Jesus

I think it backfired, 'cos now I feel I'm haunted

I know that she can feel the evil spirit

Cos twin flames we are connected

I send telepathic message, hoping it reaches and double ticks

I might just be possessed, I can't shake it

Magic spells ritual abuse from satanists

I may not have the strength to do this

Together we are a unit

Like i said, no medication can even cure this

What is this that I'm going through?

I can't tell what I'm going through

My mind stressed what I'm going through

Who am I and what I'm going through?

Evil things am I gonna do?

God help me through this pain

Through this storm and the rain

Let me see a brighter day, forgive me

Please hear me when I pray

Can you tell me what I'm going through?

I'm alone with what I'm going through