Wondering Lyrics

Laying down on the floor

I do not what's in store

My life is crashing down

But it will come around

I know I'll get up again

There is one who took my pain

But any time I lay here my my mind

Shifts to where the darkness binds

So I'll start wondering why

I had to go

Looking up from the floor

Counting all the ceiling pores

I wrote my deepest thoughts provoking

Questions for the reader asking

Why do I feel so unknown

By friends who say I'm their backbone

Listen to my words because I'm

Trying to reach you through this rhyme

So, I'll stop wondering why

You never show me

love when I'm around

You treat me with the biggest frown

So keep on wondering why

I had to go

Just keep on wondering why

I had to go

Just between you and I

I always think of when I die

How I left a mark on everyone I've ever met, it varies

Would they all look at me

with a funny memory

Or would they just fake a tear

And whisper hero in their ears

See I keep wondering why

My friends never show me

Love when I'm around

They treat me like the biggest clown

So keep on wondering why

I had to go

You keep on wondering why

I had to go

Moving to a different town

Always running up and down

Constantly avoiding tension

cause I think I lack the passion

To the girl that I adore

Is it just my messed up core

Indeed I need to hold my thoughts

Of madness before I start to rot

So I'll stop wondering why

My friends never showed me

Love when I'm around

They kept me on the runaround

So keep on wondering why

I had to go

Just keep on wondering why

I had to go

But I started wondering why

I had to go

Was this all just a lie

From a darkness deep inside

Only showing minor parts of

What my friends actually love

Do they all care for me,

Like a loving family

Got a message from a friend

Who said they need me til the end

And I started wondering why

My thoughts never

Saw the love of friends around

I took for granted with a crown

So keep on wondering why

I had to go

I keep on wondering why

I had to go

Just keep on wondering why

I had to go