Grey Matter Lyrics

I'm restless

I can never stop and just shut up

And I fall behind

Despite my drive, I'm never good enough

(I search for reasons why I'm never good enough)

I searched for reasons

Why I'm a mess, but I just can't

Be honest

A work in progress

Is all I've ever been

And it's like a dream

Where I live out the same day on repeat

(And I don't know if I'm)

Breaking through or breaking down

Or lost my mind

It's hard to tell today

But as it stands the matter's grey

I don't think I'm doing well

I love my life, but I hate myself

And I'm afraid that's never gonna change

I'm selfish

I've only ever done just what I want

(What I want)

Without common sense for consequence

While others held me up

And I fought with my flaws

I fell apart and that's hard to admit

I couldn't see the worst of me

That's why I started steadfast but then I quit

The dream

A shadow of who I thought I would be

Breaking through or breaking down

Or lost my mind

It's hard to tell today

But as it stands the matter's grey

I don't think I'm doing well

I love my life, but I hate myself

And I'm afraid that's never gonna change

Is it a breakthrough or a breakdown because they both kinda start the same?

You get a rush that hits you like a switch just went off inside your brain

And then you're left unsure it starts to blur

As the heart begins to race

I wish that could tell what's happening now

Is it a breakthrough or a breakdown?

Breaking through or breaking down

Or lost my mind

It's hard to tell today

But I don't think it matters

I don't think I'm doing well

I love my life but I hate myself

And I'm afraid that's never gonna change

(Never gonna change)

Breaking through or breaking down

Or lost my mind

It's hard to tell today

As it stands the matter's grey

(As it stands the matter's grey)

I don't think I'm doing well

I love my life but I hate myself

And I'm afraid that's never gonna change