Hard To Trust Lyrics

Lot of shade

Lot of shade

It's a lot of shade

I never meant to

No I never meant to

I never meant to

No I never meant to

Said no I never meant to hurt no body

But choices that I made

Seem to be the reason that I'm left up in the shade

Thought I could leave it in the past than I'd have to re-adjust

Ya I coulda made it last but you're getting hard to trust

Go and ask about it I know what she'll say

Really use to be like family to me now he's gone away

I can't even say that it was on my own terms

Now I gotta let the tables turn

I just needed some space

Now you're the only one I'm finding hard to replace

Use to have that armour on me but it started cracking under pressure

7 letter word 7 years later give em a refresher

Like I remember back to when I wrote that first rap

We were on FaceTime pen and paper in my lap

We kept it all about the music

Gave it to me now I use it

If I have to send a message out and sometimes abuse it

I'm sorry about Matter Of Time

Part of growing comes with owning up to crossing that line

Said some things I didn't mean

And right now I'm coming clean

I was lashing out because my ex had really got between us

There's nothing to discuss

A part of me is always stuck to anything I lust

I'm hoping once u hear this we can take a second look at what I left behind

Wonder if your thoughts have been the same as mine

I know

I should let it go

Keep it on the low

But I stay

Very out the way

Not another day though

What if we had never met

Would the future still be set

Steady counting up the chances that I get

If I'm right when I'm in the wrong it's another song by the weekend

Than I'll get a call when she figure out the meaning

Than I came to the conclusion

It's her trust I'm slowly loosing

And it's complicated

But I said I never meant to hurt no body

With choices that I made

They seem to be the reason why I'm left up in the shade

Thought I could leave it in the past and I'd have to re-adjust

Ya I coulda made it last but you're getting hard to trust

Go and ask about it I know what she'll say

Really use to be like family to me now he gone away

I can't even say that it was on my own terms

Some things you don't have to get to learn

Regret is an emotion that be fucking up you're mental state

It pushes all the boundaries and it gets you to retaliate

And this is just the way I cope

I've always been a chaser

Never woulda stopped until I realized that she's now a stranger

So let me leave you with this outro

But it's more like an intro

I'm throwing all the dirty laundry out the open window

Fresh start

No blame

Change of view

If I can do it so can you