Wish It Was Easy Lyrics

I wish it was easy to say the truth for one fucking time

Where I didn't have to run and hide

Behind all the music I make saying I'm fine

Man I lie way too many times

I shouldn't even try to say I'm in love with her

Cause she'll not even say bye

Cause it won't be the same

If we repeat what happened before it's all a game

She says she loves and cares about me

I don't think it's the same

I don't gotta test fate

To feel bubbled in cause I'm number two in her brain, yeah

Wish it was easy to figure out how to move on

We get older, she's terrified, and I don't belong

I can't replace her, I've tried, in so many of my songs

I hope she never hears this ride of emotions I've been on

I said last summer I won't mess up again

But look at us now I see no end

We just try to be friends, while my demons come in

I don't think we'll meet again but let's have a discussion

I wish it was easy to keep having hope I'll survive

Wish I didn't have to make up all of these lies

That I'll see her in front of me and live together at last

It's fucking depressing being stuck in the past

Wish it was easy to know the future of all of this

Wish I didn't think I'ma die young and not have a kid

Yeah I'm losing it and outta my mind

But you don't fucking care

I'll just keep on faking it for you, maybe it's fair

Wish I could tell her how thankful I am of her

She made me actually think I was better than I was

Even if it wasn't true I could never pay her back

I don't gotta clue

I would do it

If only I knew

She helped me when my mom had surgery

When it was hurting me

She was in the ER for 3 weeks and no one was alerting me

That I could've lost her so many times with urgency

I wish I didn't have to hear her cry on the phone

To say she wants me to take her from the ER to home

So she could kill herself by her own way and terms

Meanwhile I felt the same about myself when she's hurt

I wish it was easy to hear my mom give up easily

Wish it was easy to hide all this pain in secrecy

I wish it was easy for my friends to hear my private side

Wish it was easy to tell them I wish I had died

I wish it was easy to go back to a little kid

Wish it was easy to have to know my parents won't live

Wish it was easy to get a second chance in this one life

Wish it was easy to know it won't matter if I just died