HELLO! (INTRO) Lyrics

This is kinda like a journal of my life

Hello, entering the mind of a fucked up kid

No luck, just skids and some obstacles

Take a look into my life, here's some binoculars

Pains ocular, growin' up lil kid living in an awful situation

Switching homes and I was runnin outta patience

Mom's home but she don't work no kinda day shift

She got a hussle she was moving round them weight-lifts

Penn station

Was a delicacy

Looking back I see we never lived frivolously

Loved menacingly

Yelling, cussing all night bout the drugs y'all abused

At the time dad always had an excuse

So mom just had to go lookin' for clues

One night, she was hurting and the world feel cruel

She was sittin in the bathroom

O.D.'in off of something wanna make herself pass soon

Too soon, for her, EMS

I'm blessed, they feelin like a savior

But it meant the men in suits gotta take us

Away, me and my brother with a new fam

First house, next house,

Living out a duffy I was thinking there was no outs

I was losing my identity, fighting just to stay in one house

Ah shit, now we movin again

Thank the lord to this day that we didn't get split

We found the home, it's the one

We would think it's the end

Untrue, our luck, we was just jumping back in

Went from broken home to broken home, it looks like a trend

One affair, didn't care

But some lies covered up the truth for a passing second

Feeling wrecked with no direction

Middle school came with lessons

But it only added to the wreckage

High school, short lil freshie with no friends

Well depends, who you ask at the time

Yeah my mind could abide, to the wrong kinda ride

Had a clique, they would hit and would lie

Even took the fucking blame for a crime, it's alright

Cuz I felt included

Mind was feeling clouded

Swear I had to rebound

But I sold like Ewing

Started smoking hoping i can get some inspiration

Eyes low, but I guess that's where the pain ends

No hope, barely made it through a day shift

That's alright, I got love it's a different kinda fragrance

JK, conflict cuz I got scared to commit

So when i got cold feet, they couldn't help but resent

Lord i gotta repent

For all the breakup texts that I willingly sent

Or all the innocent hearts that I drove by and hit

Hard to fix, yeah I gotta admit

Finding love, when you live through a heart with a dent

Push to start, ben 10, now I'm jumping back in

Uh, uh, uh yeah i'm jumping back in

Give y'all a little break, now let me jump back in

Bipolar plus an added secret temper

Mind clock, yeah it's switching to December

Feeling cold, I get the rock I won't deliver

Head spinning, where's the love I can't remember?

I'm doubting my way out of a hell of a life

I'm done with the fights

Why'd I say all this shit when I thought I had gave you one night

Get the fuck out of my house!