Pedestal Lyrics

It's been three years and counting

And it kills me that I'll never understand

Why I put you above everyone else

You held so much power

And it kills me that you never had to try

My attention, my contentment, was wrapped around your finger tips

It's so hard to erase those years when I wished I would disappear

Now that I've left you I can see the corruption you forced onto me

I put you so high on my pedestal

But you burned that shit down

With the matches you stole

I can't stand behind a person who makes me feel undeserving of love

You held me as I fell apart

But now you're the reason I am scarred

I never want to see you

I wish I never loved you

I think these past years have gotten to your head

When I'm around you now I would rather be dead

But at one point you were the reason I wanted to live

You wanted nothing to do with me

But I truly believed you'd make me happy

Oh, how you made me blind to reality

It's so hard to erase those years when I wished I would disappear

Now that I've left you I can see the corruption you forced onto me

I put you so high on my pedestal

But you burned that shit down

With the matches you stole

I can't stand behind a person who makes me feel undeserving of love

You held me as I fell apart

But now you're the reason I am scarred

I never want to see you

I wish I never loved you

You, you were my everything

The reason that I smiled

The reason that I lived

All of my friends knew your name

The amount of time I spoke of you I drove them all insane

Tell me

Was it all a lie?

When you held my head against your chest

And told me not to cry

Now, I am growing up

You are nothing but a conceded man that I used to love

I put you so high on my pedestal

But you burned that shit down

With the matches you stole

I can't stand behind a person who makes me feel undeserving of love

You held me as I fell apart

But now you're the reason I am scarred

I never want to see you

I wish I never loved you