Insomniac ft. Zxyyy Lyrics

I don't wanna go to sleep

Cause I'm afraid of my dreams

They are out to get me

And I cannot break free

Day to day live in a cloud of depression

Always fighting all my demons

Got me feeling like I'm stressing

When I go to sleep

Get attacked by my dreams

I wake up in agony

Like something's messing with me

Then I realize I'm alone

No one hitting up my phone

Then I look at what time it is

I'm getting really tired of this

It's driving me crazy

Some one come and save me

This is so repetitive

Just let me have my sedatives

So I can be numb for awhile

I can put the pain on idle

And nobody ever stays

Cause the feelings fade away

And I think too much

Those thoughts become my crutch

Can someone come in clutch

I apologize too much

Don't wanna hold a grudge

Feeling like I'm being judged

I don't know what's next

Feel the pain inside my chest

I can't even sleep at night

I cannot do anything right

Yeah I cannot sleep at night

And I can't do anything right

At a dead end

Watching the money I spend

Enough's enough right

No that's not the case with me

Cause my pain is sealed tight

Yeah nobody needs to see

Everything I hide inside

I feel the pain I wonder why

Look at times I could've died

I kept asking you why

Just kill me already

Yeah the world is getting heavy

Yeah I'm surviving but barley

I get treated unfairly

I can't get ahead

I just want to stay in bed

I don't wanna go to sleep

Cause I'm afraid of my dreams

They are out to get me

And I cannot break free

Take one step forward take five steps back

Just cut me some slack

There's something to live for

If you find it come knock on my door

I don't know anymore

Everyday feels like a chore

I just need to get back to sleep

Cause living ain't cheap

I'm insomniac

Constantly under attack

I just wanna be me again

Wanna be free again

Wanna laugh and smile yeah I just wanna feel again

I just wanna have a love that I can say is real again

But times are getting hard

Yeah these times are getting rough

I can't ever trust nobody

I'm too scared to fall in love

That's why I'm insomniac

That's why my thoughts are getting wack

I showed you I cared, gave you my heart, I cannot take it back

I don't wanna go to sleep

Can't shake this PTSD

Why is this happening?