JOKER Lyrics

Ya

We the north

Merry fucking Christmas

I never fucking got the point of Christmas

Maybe I did back when I was a child

But that was before I was scared

Ya see

Christmas

Reminds me that I'm not fucking happy

I'm looking for something that I don't know if I can truly find

Hopefully this year I can find it

I say what I want

I say what I mean

You force me to be someone that I can't truly be

It's like they shove knife threw the skin of my face

So I'm always smiling but deep down you know that ain't the case

I laugh like the joker

Smiling equals pain

Im sick of all these lights that tell it's Christmas again

I laugh like the joker

Snow is frozen rain

Icy water falls enhancing demons in my brain

Oh

Hello

Didn't see ya there

I'm clown I'm happy so why the fuck are you so scared

I swear to god I'm happy cuz this smile is what I wear

Ah fuck this shit it's scars my cheeks and heart are fucking teared

Why do you even care

You wouldn't even dare

Tell anyone you talk to me because I'm mentally impaired

They say Christmas time is fun

They say Christmas time is joy

It's like Santa made me in his shop I get treated like a toy

Using me tricking me while I have the battery

But when my battery goes dead you abandon me

Instead of replacing my batteries

Helping me to breathe

You dispose of me so quickly and leave me to plead on my knees

Feel like I'm on ventilator with COVID-19

PTSD brings suffocating anxiety

Hey it's Christmas time press pause on your problems for the day

Bitch there's no remote so life is always left on play

The earth is still spinning

Them demons think their winning

They're giving me that grinchy attitude that ain't appealing

These bitches equal waste

Toxic might I say

Step in my shoes and let's put a smile on that face

I say what I want

I say what I mean

You force me to be someone that I can't truly be

It's like they shove knife threw the skin of my face

So I'm always smiling but deep down you know that ain't the case

I laugh like the joker

Smiling equals pain

Im sick of all these lights that tell it's Christmas again

I laugh like the joker

Snow is frozen rain

Icy water falls enhancing demons in my brain

Laugh like the joker

Laugh like the joker

Laugh like the joker

Laugh like the joker

Laugh like the joker

Laugh like the joker

Laugh like the joker

Laugh like the joker

Hey what's good

I think I understood

Christmas is still a day with pressure to take off your hood

But I get it

It's comfy

You have to truly be

Fuck all this pressure that is given by society

Christmas in America becomes Comerica

Buy this buy that so you cover all your fucking struggles up

Not all the money in existence buys happiness

You have to work takes time and pain but that don't take a fucking rest

Ya see America makes Christmas so hyped up in peoples eyes

They spend all their money hoping their struggles will die

People spend all their money on a bunch of useless shit

Half of it don't get used and it ends up in a fucking closet

While corporate powers walk away with endless money

No one in this scenario is ever truly happy

Christmas is a day and some people are in pain

So before you call me grinch let's see if you can hang

Christmas bells are ringing, ringing

It's so painful ears are stinging

Christmas bells are ringing, ringing

Feel my pain I need some healing

Christmas bells are ringing, ringing

It's so painful ears are stinging

Christmas bells are ringing, ringing

Feel my pain I need some healing

Look for all of you who struggle on Christmas time, I get it

America preaches to buy your happiness when in reality there's not a price tag on it

So if you're not feeling it on Christmas it's okay

It's okay

Don't let your family give you that bullshit pressure

Just because they're happy doesn't mean that you have to be happy

It's okay to not be okay