Cowgirl (Christine) Lyrics

Cowgirl, I was the horse you were built to break

I know it's sad for me to think that way

Cowgirl, I was screwed the moment I met you

There are many things I should have said

When you were new material

When I hoped you just might have expanded in my bed

And pulled me into the world

But from your heart there rang bells of pain

Instead of listening, I had the nerve to complain

I loved you more than myself at best

But was it really love

Or a desire to possess?

I only wanted to be with you

I never meant to inflict abuse

New material, when we were sixteen

You said vanilla sugar was your favourite scent

So I wrote a song for you

Lied and said it meant nothing

Despite "Ryan, I've never seen this side of you"

A baring of emotion

Yet I chained fear to my ankle, sank into the sea

And for the next ten years

I felt my spirit atrophy

I only wanted to be with you

I never meant to inflict abuse

Christine

Thank you for being a loyal friend

You made me smile, you made me sing

I cherish those art class days

Me, ignoring the lesson

You, describing your depression

Our legs pressed together, huddled in intimacy

Christine, you meant so much to me

But my love bordered on obsession

For your beauty inspired

A brilliance of colour

I had never seen before

Colour I feared I'd never see again

Christine, I'm sorry

I'm sorry for being a shit friend

I spread shadows behind your back

Bitterness consumed me

And you sought the arms of another

So I sought to destroy you

Karma gives as karma takes

And I have felt my actions

I'm so sorry

I only wanted to be with you

I never meant to inflict abuse