Cloudy Boy Lyrics

And if I were to settle down

Would my heart start to mend?

And if I were to live a little

Would I ever have a chance then?

There's so many things I have yet to do

I thought I saw myself doing them all with you

And to a certain extent, I still do

But my love fades to a pale navy blue

And then there's the ones who take

The internet boys, and the friends who don't know when to break

The overbearing precursors, and the horrible, sad mistakes

How could I ever let go of them

My thoughts drift in, and out: an open mind

How could I ever lose what I could never find

It was nice to think for once that it'd all be fine

Maybe I should take it as a sign

So goodbye to the days of living amongst the other men

A cloudy boy on his balcony, just waiting to ascend

Should I text them back, do I shoot myself by hitting send?

Or do I stew with my thoughts until I give in again

Poetry on keyboards is my only friend

The one blank canvas that will never run away again

I'm not even into the prime of my life, and I want it to end

Could've capped it off and a high note, but here I am

Silly me, I thought that there would be something at the end

One thing to make it worth it, one thing that I could defend

And then I lost it all, and then I lost it again

It's not a matter of want, it's a matter of when

So goodbye to the ivory skies, and precious nights

Goodbye to the loving gestures, the court jester, and my preference for spite

I'll see you all in the next season, I hope all is well

But then again, how could I ever tell

Tell you how

How I cried for hours

How I took it all to heart

How I sat on the floor in the shower

I know growing up is hard

But why do I

Feel this way all the time

The shouts echo into the void

Which echoes into my cries

I try, I really do

Got all the time in the world, just to stew

But I'm getting better, I'm not defeated

The show's not over yet, please stay seated

Come next winter time

I'll be alright