Joker Lyrics

Look

It's been a battle fighting demons

That nobody can attest to

Coz my body is in a cage

It leaves my mind up the dress room

I'm addressing all my characters

Reality is stressful

I would rather build a castle with a wall that's high enough to hide my awkwardness

Often times I'd rather be alone

I mean it's dope to be with friends

But now I'd rather be at home

You see I'm tired of making changes

All the doubts and rearranging

All the mess from tearing pages

I'm so tired of being grown

I lie

You see my pasts a little darker

I would cast a spell of light to fill the magic in my marker

I would rather give you bars than leave my feelings up for barter

So you'll tell me that I missed the plot

Like I was not the archer

I'll give you punchlines to cover up the pain

My cover ups addictive

Guess I covered up the vane

Guess my covers up against me

I forgot what I was saying

I blew my cover and it came to bite me back and leave a stain

All I ever had was my identity and spirit

My connection kinda severed

I've been acting like I'm with it

All my passion hides behind a writers block that got me cynic

The people that I hoped would have my back are none existent

I refuse to say it gets to me

The thought is too frustrating

I'm yet to figure out the parts of me I need to save

Because I'm lost in my intensity

My soul is kinda heavy

So I'm backing off the dropping

I'll address you when I'm ready

I guess for now I'll be the Joker

Caught behind a mask and fake a smile until it's over

Force cough until I laugh

Forces compromise my confidence

My competence has crashed

But I'll still give you all a show

I guess that's all you ever asked