keeping up Lyrics

Oh I had these dreams again, had these schemes again

I am so dry i've been hanging out

Tell me all about how i can make it out

Just trust in myself? I'm blind to find a way

Find me out; smoke me out and lay here with me

Forgetting to escape; just trying to find a reason

These cold chicago winters don't mean anything to me

I'm trying to find a way that i can let this go

I'm looking out my window with a sense of clarity

Breathing out the stale air free and wild not lonely and afraid

If i could have the guts to pick it up to the place i wanna be

It would make some sense to me

And I try with everything i am to keep my life in time with my lifetime

And I'd like to think that i am fine but i wont lie who's happy all the time? i don't know why