Self Destruct Lyrics

Hit the self destruct, push the button till it breaks

I'm addicted to some people, withdrawing, now I have the shakes

Wanna fuck myself up in any way that I could think

I'm into knife play and I'm not talking kinks

My blood will bleed red as my body dies slow

Build it up like suspense, a ​little ready, set go

The way to get out's just a simple little game

And once I get out, you won't remember my name

Build me up, tear me down

Sturdy as a house of cards

I see myself and punch the mirror

And then play with the shards

Or become a doormat

Let people stomp right on my neck

Going through my list of plans

And get them done, check check

No one would care if I died in the night

Leave me with the trash, now this feels right

Hit the self destruct, I don't wanna be awake

So tired of alive, I wonder how much you could take

I bother everyone, even though they never say

But I know it to be true, I know for sure, I have my ways

My mind is a monster, thoughts are terrorizing me

In the closets in my head and they're living rent free

I wanna break out, I wanna loosen up the chains

To go back to the bottle or dive in a pool of blades

Build me up, tear me down

Solid like a paper plane

Flying in a thunderstorm

And melting in the rain

"It'll get better"

No, bite your fucking tongue

Been in a state of agony

Since I was eight years young

No one would care if I died here today

They'd cry for a second then forever go away

Smoke in my lungs

Vodka on the lips

Have a gun to my head

While I'm sucking on the tip

Got that powder in my nose

While I'm slipping on the blade

Screaming at the mirror

"Why won't you go away?"

Got the acid on my tongue

And the hurt in my hands

My foot starts to bleed

Stepping on the empty cans

Cigarettes on the ground

While I'm looking for the blade

Hoping I could end it all

On any given day

Smoke in my lungs

Vodka on the lips

Have a gun to my head

While I'm sucking on the tip

Got that powder in my nose

While I'm slipping on the blade

Screaming at the mirror

"Why won't you go away?"

Got the acid on my tongue

And the hurt in my hands

My foot starts to bleed

Stepping on the empty cans

Cigarettes on the ground

While I'm looking for the blade

Hoping I could end it all

On any given day