I had it all Lyrics

I had it all, but then I look in your eyes and I watch it all crash over again

And oh, take a look at the tears I shed and now I know

I'll never change again

The fuck was I getting into, naive

I chose not to hear y'all input

Now vision, picture living your dream, purely living

Now just close your eyes and just listen

Hey, what's stressing? We in a recession

We ain't wealthy, so that adds a lot of pressure

I went on a mission, fishing for wealth, dishing out visions for sale

Sticking drug dealers for commission and bail

A couple years worked for me well, ultimately

In the end, it was my ticket to jail

I'm filling up notebooks at night, writing, reciting my life

How it's like fighting Mike Tyson, trying to kick a drug addiction

Wishing I could just take charge of my life and live the life that I'm missing

I knew playing the game, it's likely I'll lose my life

Drug fame comes back, biting through the hands of christ

I had it all, but then I look in your eyes and I watch it all crash over again

And oh, take a look at the tears I shed and now I know, I'll never change again

A lot of nights I wake up scared from the nightmares

Dope and gun got set up with the fed case

.45 revolver and it was loaded

Cops said it was mine, number scratched and stolen

I woke up and from then on I looked at life like this

I'm down by two, I need three and I just might miss

I wish I could go back and fix situations that happened

Mixed a lot of empty visions so I had to make decisions quick

Compromised the bad with the good

Except the bullshit, I always had to commit it

I'm grieving, believe me dog, it ain't easy

Mourning every morning, my eyes puffed up and I'm tearing

Killed my best friend so no, I won't let it go

Every morning I count my cash, I put it in rubber bands

Pre-plan my funeral, put out my black suit and tie

Cause there's a chance I might not be coming back

And then I look in your eyes and I watch it all crash over again

Take a look at the tears I've shed and now I know

I'll never change again