In Spite of Myself Lyrics

My whole life a vacay

My whole life a vacay

My whole life a vacay

My whole life a vacay

Way above my paygrade

I don't got the backbone

All I do is placate

Every time I stand up

I get no demand met

They all give me answers

More like 10 commandments

Do I seem blissful to you?

Why even listen if I'm just a mascot?

And my happiness relative too

I'm not a silver bullet, I'm a crapshot

But they're actin like I am invincible

I can't be mad, I've said it my whole life

It's a matter of honor & principle

Ain't a soul know me but my own wife

So I double down and I bare my teeth

Wear my whole heart on a bare sleeve

And I role model and it scares me

You need big daddy, I need therapy

You need big brother, I need less onus

And you more present but you're less focused

You're more petty and you're more vapid

And I think I hate you, what the fuck happened?!

My whole life a vacay

Way above my paygrade

I don't got the backbone

All I do is placate

Every time I stand up

I get no demand met

They all give me answers

More like 10 commandments

My whole life a vacay

Way above my paygrade

I don't got the backbone

All I do is placate

Every time I stand up

I get no demand met

They all give me answers

More like 10 commandments

More like 10 commandments

They all give me answers now

Every time I stand up

I get no demand met now

I'm ahead of the pack

But all that means is I'm alone at the mast

Happy family, and they know it'll last

So all these snakes are tryna leech my ass

Make a petty reason and beseech my ass

Take a pound of flesh for your season pass

I'm a great ride, if I even last

Til' the finish line

I got a big issue and it isn't mine

The taste of apathy

Bitter you'd anticipate

What they don't concede

Sweeter in a million ways

Spitting out my teeth

Rotten from witholding all

The venom that's my controlling

My perspective and emotions lately

My whole life a vacay I cannot afford

Precious moments turn corrosive

I'm falling through the floor

Got locusts on my body, gave the shirt up off my back

Stuck my neck out for a ribbon but they're giving' me the axe

My whole life a vacay

Way above my paygrade

I don't got the backbone

All I do is placate

Every time I stand up

I get no demand met

They all give me answers

More like 10 commandments

My whole life a vacay

Way above my paygrade

I don't got the backbone

All I do is placate

Every time I stand up

I get no demand met

They all give me answers

More like 10 commandments