plastic and quicksand Lyrics

At the times when you are just about to lose

All your sanity, you have the right to choose

To dwell where you are or where your god is

Unlike you, I clenched my fists and fought it

You surround yourself with plastic support

With brick and iron I constructed a fort

If plastic and quicksand are enough to lean on

Then where on earth does that leave me, God?

If I'm not alone

Then why have I been the only constant in my life?

I want to be known

Then why does sitting in your house feel like a spiritual heist?

Why don't you trust your child

When she tells you she can't do maintain the façade anymore?

You wonder why she won't reconcile

The fact that your other children closed the door

I find it hard to look down and fold my hands

Discovering my home has become a foreign land

Obsession with confession, repentance then repeat

Long and empty promises, I never feel complete

Never learning who you are except a child of God

Veering off to find yourself and feeling like a fraud

Why should I believe in the creator of all things

When that same creator was the man who clipped my wings?

If I'm not alone

Then why have I been the only constant in my life?

I want to be known

Then why does sitting in your house feel like a spiritual heist?

Why don't you trust your child

When she tells you she can't do maintain the façade anymore?

You wonder why she won't reconcile

The fact that your other children closed the door

Someone tell me that I'm not the only one not feeling his presence

I look up, the sky is clear; was he ever there, or did I just miss him?

You tell me to let him in and I always end up getting hurt

Sometimes I just wish that I hadn't gone to church