Toxic Lyrics

Yeah

Yeah I hate you right now, yeah I'm not fucking with you right now

But I don't want you to get it confused with

I don't want, I don't want to you see you happy

I don't want you to be happy

I don't want you to be at peace

I don't want you to accomplish your goals and your aspirations, I still do

It's just that, you just need to do it on the other side

Because with you in my life right now, it's too toxic

I could tell you what I been through

But on these beats cause I got no one to vent to

So overloving somebody is what I tend to

Cause ain't nobody really caring what you been through

Heartbroken but I still gotta function

Heart big gotta play it like it's shrunken

Without knowing I contribute to the cycle

Cause hurt people hurt people then spiral

And I resent that it happens so frequently

Took it at face value what it seem to be

Not a care in the world just what it mean to me

Because I let you be you then you cling to me

Now you bringing me

All these vibes that you can't keep

Falling for you but I play it like it ain't deep

Then it go left, like it can't be

Gotta question myself and now I can't sleep

Now I'm up late cause it's unresolved

In the manner that you left without one regard

I be screaming out to God like why me

They see the energy I give then they dry me

Let you cry me, a river then drown in it

I get a bottle of the liquor then I'm downing it

Letting smoke in the air, clear everything

All the promises you made bout a wedding ring

They was empty, like a nigga really feeling now

Heart big but it got you feeling you lil now

I was going off emotion

Not thinking things through, that's the reason that I really gotta heal now

Pain, that's what I felt

Wonder if you truly felt how I felt

Wish it was us and like nobody else

At the end of the day now I'm back by myself (Uh)

Toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins

Know I see it in me but can't stop it

Compared to everyone else you got options

But you, so, toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins

Know you seeing the truth and still block it

Know I'm damaged and scarred take caution (Uh)

Let me show you real love unconditional

Gotta show you that a brother heart pure

Careless bout having to be traditional

Imma really bring the vibes you gon fall for me for sure

Got you doing things you never did

Know bout your past know I'm better than

Make em beg for attention never let em in

Then they get tired, ties sever them

Aye, I could just deflect while I'm pointing fingers

But the feeling of regret know it still lingers

Only ran to my music couldn't run to my momma

Childhood trauma make adulthood drama

Now I'm back alone gotta stand in the paint

Cause nobody really knowing all the things I had to conquer

Don't even got a heart, see them fragments in you

My ex told me that I had attachment issues

In the middle of a fight now I can't shake it

Like maybe she was right now I can't make it

And I can't take it, so I'm salty now

Cause everybody in my life steady walking out

Or they stay in it, but they checked out

Now I'm giving them the cards to defect now

Still leave but they kinda done left already

Got me drowning in my feelings cause the depth so heavy

I just wanna love can you love me back?

Don't wanna quit so quick so I double back

Never really letting go is my toxic trait

Would I should be doing, make em stop and wait

But I'm tryna fix you cause I know you broken

Now I'm giving you the tools but you getting me open

Out of the everybody I'm the one that you chosen

Real conversations, real things that were spoken

Times I wrong ain't forgave myself

Couldn't find closure but I made myself

Had to do it really quick for I hate myself

Cause the time gon pass can't escape yourself

Building up walls fore I break myself

I won't sleep with no regard so I wake myself

Gotta look into the mirror with my toxic ways

Don't wanna make you feel bad that you gotta stay cause I'm uh

Toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins

Know I see it in me but can't stop it

Compared to everyone else you got options

But you, so, toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins

Know you seeing the truth and still block it

Know I'm damaged and scarred take caution (Uh)