Veil Lyrics

I got no confidence feels like competence is constantly missing

Competition with inner critic losing I'm never winning

I confide in these lyrics written hoping I find forgiveness

My spirit ain't ready I'm still a cynic

I've burned bridges for bad intentions maybe I should've questioned

Everything I know but I let it go cuz I ain't obsessing

Look in the mirror when I need reflection

These lessons is hard to learn all I see in myself are imperfections

Stressing on perfecting the craft my addiction

It's keeping me crazy or keeping me company that's your opinion

I get no comfort from faith or from religion

I stare death in the face with fear but no superstitions no

I've got the pen and paper, they keep me safer than a tech-nine

I sketch rhymes and then erase 'em

Feelings I can't trace 'em to the bottom so I just replace 'em

With melodies and beats and all of these faces on my

TV screen matrix, sometimes reality is too much

So I try to escape it, and I stare into the

TV screen until I'm brainless, can't change the fact

That everyday just simply isn't painless

I wish I was a perfect picture painted, immune to scrutiny

And you could see that every brushstroke landed beautifully

But truthfully I see a masterpiece inside of everyone

Except me

Nothing comes easy when I'm alone

I keep these curtains open so you can see me

I can't control these

Things that make me feel so low

I'm not perfect but I'm trying

I'm not winning but I'm fighting

All these feelings on my own

Ooooo

I stay in isolation corners of my room pacing

Waiting for time to pass I wait but can't take

These walls that I'm encased in feeling so out of place

Been dealing with stagnation there ain't no hope for change

Nobody's hitting me back, my girl in another state

She chasing college degree and I'm trying to do the same

We buried in all these books can't carry this fucking weight

The stress built up in waves and pressure won't dissipate

And tension turns into rage I carry the shit til it turns to

Poison inside my veins I'm wallowing in this pain

Running from feeling afraid but there ain't no escape

But I'm just too scared to fail I'm too afraid of mistakes

And I'm having these bad dreams you know they keep me awake

I can't sleep from memories running round in my brain

And in the morning I wake up and I'm still feeling the same

These king nights keep bleeding into more of these bad days

Where nothing is really different I'm still sitting in this room

And I'm feeling so fucking lonely cuz I don't got shit to do

And the more that I sit here thinking the harder it is to move

But I should stop bitching cuz this situation is nothing new

And all these songs I ain't finished keep on piling up

And even if I did I know that it still wouldn't be enough

To make me feel better cuz change comes from within

But as long as I'm alone I just won't know where to begin

Shit

Nothing comes easy when I'm alone

I keep these curtains open so you can see me

I can't control these

Things that make me feel so low

I'm not perfect but I'm trying

I'm not winning but I'm fighting

All these feelings on my own

Ooooo