Rant from the Back Seat (Bonus Track) Lyrics

Haven't wrote in a long time

Haven't felt this strong in a long time

Haven't felt love in a long time

Never heard from above any time

Might look sick, but I feel fine

Head cold and fever won't slow time

Don't worry bout me come showtime

I'm up and ready when it's go time

I underestimate this life of mine

My teenage years have been a fun, fun ride

Can't believe I worried about being liked

Meaningless shit don't concern me and mine

I want every conversation that I have

To be real and impactful and kinda sad

But only one man can speak so deep like that

And we barely had the time to chat

So much wasted time

Worryin' about things that come to mind

So many trivial lies

Told just for the sake of lying

So much habitual spite

Over who is wrong and who can't be right

So many memories shared

With people struggling in equivalent despair

Lookin' back on old pictures

It's always funny to see

I always look so much happier

Than I thought I could be

‘Cause a genuine smile

Says more about a man

Than a thousand written words

Or one whole album can

It's one big fat illusion

This notion of purpose

Every success that I know

Thinks that they don't deserve it

The humblest people

Seem so hard on themselves

As if all they’re accomplishing

Is for somebody else

So much wasted time

Practicing irrelevance later in life

So many digital files

Of photos to look back on and smile

So much alcohol drained

In a world of beauty and constant pain

So many paths to take

And alternate lifetimes that lay in your wake

Hard to believe seven years have gone by

Since I first felt true loss in life

Everything changes when somebody dies

Especially when it's your first time

I remember collapsin' on the bathroom floor

After you'd been gone a year, no more

I pleaded to God, "Man, what's it all for”

Guess he’s too busy to answer

That grief stuck with me as I grew

Molded a cold ‘n’ nihilistic worldview

With a pessimistic outlook on love

And such reassurance I was cursed with bad luck

Can’t be sure if there's a Heaven or hell

Either way, who am I to tell

Wherever you are, man, I hope you don't dwell

On the people of earth who didn't treat you well

So much wasted time

Beggin' God to bring ya back to life

So many restless nights

Dreading the eventual end of my time

So much changed that night

A blow to the heart far worse than a knife

So many loved you, that's right

I will miss you for all of my life

I will miss you for all of my life

I’ll love and miss you for all of my life