I Wish Lyrics

Lately, I've been down

Questioning my life

Just tryna figure shit out

Cause nothing seems to go right

I wanna throw in the towel

But I can't give up the fight

Man

I wish things could be different

I swear to God that I've tried

But so many nights that I've cried

Sometimes wishing I would just die

But I can't leave, I gotta be the tree

To grow the apples of my eye

And they're watching me, so I gotta be

On my P's & Q's at all times

I gotta be strong

But sometimes it's hard to hold on

So sick of being alone, I'm

Forced to sit on the throne, Why

Does everything gotta be up to me

When I'm overwhelmed to the bone

Don't know how much more that I can take

Before I lose control of my dome

But sometimes I feel like I need to escape

Sometimes I feel like no one can relate

Sometimes I think it'll never get better

Cause inside my mind

The depression is great

Just let me be great

I don't want nothing but bills to be paid

Mouths to be fed

Somewhere to lay

A circle of friends that don't turn into snakes

I'm so tired of the stress

It's hard not to focus on all my regrets

I just wanna do better and be a go-getter

Not settle for less

Man

But what the hell do you when

Everyday it's like something else

Is just weighing down on you

Damn

When's it gonna get lighter

Is it gonna get brighter

Just pass me the lighter

Cause I'm tryna get higher

So I ain't gotta think about everything

That I'm going through

That makes people say,

"Man, I'll pray for you

You a hell of a fighter!"

Lately, I've been down

Questioning my life

Just tryna figure shit out

Cause nothing seems to go right

I wanna throw in the towel

But I can't give up the fight

Man

I wish things could be different

Ion even know what I did

To deserve the mess that I'm in

But it's got me contemplating on sin

And I pray to God that I can find a job

That I don't always dread to clock in

Cause I'm about to lose it, I'm a lit fuse

And I can blow at any second

I need to cool down

Take a couple shots of that Crown and

Break the Swisher on down, then

Fill it up with that loud

Cause it's the only thing

That really keeps me sane

From all the crazy things in my mind

Besides the kids I had, and the pen n' pad

And the hope that one day I'll shine

But sometimes I feel like I'm never enough

Sometimes I feel like I wanna give up

Sometimes I get so discouraged

That I cannot flourish

And I'm the one holding me up

Yeah I'm holding me back

I'm the worst critic that I've ever had

Don't like my teeth and my stomach's not flat

Don't like the sound of my voice when I rap

Insecurities killing me

Through my head like a Kennedy

Taking shots from my enemies

I cannot let em get to me

Playing me like they friend to me

Calling me sis like they kin to me

Really they just want the end of me

I got the remedy

Take all the negative people and energy

Make em a memory

They say if you want change, you gotta make it

If you see a chance, you need to take it

If you got a fear, man, you need to face it

And they say

If you got a dream, then

You need to chase it

Got a talent, never waste it,

Just embrace it and get a paycheck, but

Lately, I've been down

Questioning my life

Just tryna figure shit out

Cause nothing seems to go right

I wanna throw in the towel

But I can't give up the fight

Man

I wish things could be different

I wish things could be different