Self Destructive Lyrics

I dont want no one to hold me

I need some peace from the old me

Back is the way that she hold me

Down is the way that she want me

Forward the way that im going

Side is the bitch that adore me

Seem like im moving in every direction

I keep my protection up on me

This is my life I'm the host

Remember when I did the most

Ask about me if you want

They'll say leave him-malone like he Post.

Light Iverson I become

If I have a son he the one

I gotta beware where I cum

These bitches be choosing for fun

But I aint never had no problem with women I love when I can

Wasn't the man

But when I look back on my past, I'm glad that I am who I am

Now I'm the man

Take it or leave it, somebody just left so I took it and ran

Aint have a plan, but my vision been panned

Aint have a band, but my mission is grand

Play my position

I'm luckily litty, I come to yo city and fuck up the trend

Tryna get rich off a phone in my hand

All of these riches I owe to my friends

All of these bitches I owe to my mans

All of these mentions I owe to my fans

Damn I got fans?

Playing be humble while poppin these xans, God damn

And like, boy I will forget everything off the drugs

Like the good and the bad

Shit be crazy but like...

Ion know it just help you adapt

It's Fucked Up, but it's real tho

You know, just try to remain humble with the music, all that shit

You know Remain humble, remain humble, yeah

Hearing the rumble from all of these fags.

Can I say fag?

Too late I brag

Truthfully arrogant, I think it started for real when I planted a L on my dad

Throw in a O and a L, and I laugh

Laughing Of Loud, I'm high in a trance

Don't think Im going to hell when I pass

I'll tell a crowd get right while you can

I'll tell a child too chin up and go

Rather than sitting and crying alone

Cause I done em both

I been a punk and a soldier, but failure I learned from the most

But thats how it go

Aint tryna boast

I rather tell you bout all of my lows

I'll prolly bring that shit up in my notes

But i'll never mention not one of my hoes

Im never wishing on none of my foes, for anything bad I honestly pray

Tell em a lie that I'll honestly say Cause niggas be plotting no promises made

Said I might kill em no promises made

Wait for the day to see commas in bank

I seen alot and the trauma's engraved

Musical Drama cause Thomas is Tang

Musical mother, a musical father, my life a soap opera, or more like a play. Once was a athlete, and then I start acting, cause I hid my teammates from all of my pain

I was the type to go cry in the rain. But I rather type, than go cry, what I'm saying

Sometimes I write like I'm finding my grave, find my headstone and I'm signing my name God damn

And look Ion wanna die, I swear to God

I'll live forever leave it to me forreal

If you know me you know that, but like

With life I just, I just take the good with the bad, straight up

You know, "it is what it is" you gotta learn that

It's up to you what you gone do you know

I just be feeling self destructive (Look) Ion know

This one's for the real niggas who died young

Where I from, disrespect them you get disfigured, here them guys come

I did figure how to stay alive, said a lot of prayers, you should try some

Forgive me im a real nigga, ima tell the truth, and Ima die one

Pitch game like Cy Young

Wanna ball you should buy one

Sleep with it till the sky come

And get some shots up till a high come

Shit that Ima tell my son

Everybody need a dream to live

We all gotta learn to take advantage

And know, everybody got something to give

I know I be going back and forth like i forgot something

Pulling strings till a knot bundle

Push the limit till my car rumble

Chasing light through a long tunnel

I be reeking havoc like its not trouble

Smoking havoc

I got smoking habits

I cant even eat less I spark something

Food for thought, with a hard stomach

And hard head just to coincide

My pops use to tell me go inside

I done seen so many punishments, in a harsh world, how I wont survive

Type a nigga that a die, then I prolly get to thinking how I'm gone revive

But thats me at my best

Wish for my death nigga

But Im so alive

Well, until next time

(Door Shuts)