$pent Lyrics

Say I'm okay but I'm freaking out

Hey pops can you see me now from the clouds?

Are you in the crowd?

Did I make you proud?

Yeah

Yeah

Days like these I'm having doubts

Can you hear me as I'm screaming out

From my mouth

I'm about to drown

I'm breaking down

They say I stick out like a sore thumb

Ain't sore anymore because I'm all numb

Sipping on that malt liquor and rum

Thought it would always solve my problems

But it didn't even solve one

I guess last night I drunk called him

As I hit rock bottom of the bottle

That I used to forget about the sorrows

That involve you

It is my fault that I'm hallow

That's a bitter pill to swallow

Process starts over tomorrow

What do y'all know?

I'm just a pretty white boy with a silver spoon grew up in a rich home

Fuck that

You don't know my predicament

Had to struggle ever since I was a little kid

Dead dad at the age of 15

With a drug addict mom who's still using

And I still say I'm okay

Say you're sorry for me thanks man that's great

Yeah you're only one phone call away?

I'll be there if you ever wanna talk

But ain't that what they all say?

But when you call it's too late

Ain't nobody wanna hear your pain

Unless they get paid it's a shame

That we all gotta be that way

But you still gotta

Be positive and look up at the blue sky

But to me that sky's grey

You should know that I'm a realist

You can keep your two cents

I don't want your fucking spare change

Look

I never asked for your sympathy

I never asked for no symphony of people that pity me

Open their mouth to belittle me

What you are lacking is empathy

So I sing

I will not break under all of the weight

And the pressure I hold

No

I used my ex as my anchor

Her bitch ass left me in the cold

No

Ask me why I don't t trust no more

Ask me why I don't trust no hoes

Yeah

I'm so depressed

I'm so depressed

Yeah yeah

And all of this stress

It fucks with my head

Yeah yeah

Why you fuckin with my head?

Hmm mm

Got me feeling like I'm spent

It's fuck what she said

I am

Sinking I'm about to drown

But nobody paddles out saving me

From a sea of doubt

That surrounds my pride

Why should I be proud?

All I did was announce

That I'm different take a bow

Walk off stage with a permanent frown

I never did this shit to make y'all proud

I never did it for the fame or rallying crowds

I write for the kids who don't have a voice

Never got to choose

Walking through life all broken and bruised

Nothing to lose

Walk in my shoes

Instead of walking straight

You have to walk in a skew

From the moment you were born

You were already screwed

Mom has always picked her needles over you

Your suicidal father spread his wings and he flew

Out of the stratosphere

And dissipated in blue

And I'm messed up

Torn down

All I ever do is scorn now

Fake a smile too long

I am sore now

I don't know if I believe in a lord now

Had to move out because the house was foreclosed

Mom heating up a spoon in order to cope

Little girl without her father 13 years old

You may have dealt me shitty cards

But I ain't ready to fold

I am the man with the stone face

Won't ever erode break

Bombs bullets and grenades

Still I am not phase

Walking through a war not a scratch

I am unscathed I was only a kid

And all of the weight got thrown onto my shoulders

My dad always told me that I was his soldier

So I had to keep my composure

I had to stay locked and loaded

Take control of my emotion so I do not fuck this thing up from exploding like