Help Me Lyrics

Help me

I am so lonely

I'm falling down

When you're not around

Help me

I am so lonely

I'm falling down

When you're not around

Ay ah

I'm feeling so alone

I'm trapped and I can't leave my home

I'm battling an entity that's sitting on my throne

Feeling kind of weak every time I use the phone

Sensitive to light and I don't even know

If I am myself because I'm feeling like a ghost

I'm dealing with anxiety almost everyday

Had a panic attack I've never been the same

They ask me how it feels but I really can't explain

It's like your drunk and it doesn't go away

And it makes you go insane

And I'm running out of strength

I don't really want to go but I don't want to stay

I look at everyone and I get envy deep inside

'Cause they don't have to deal with this feeling of being high

I don't know what it can be but it feels like I'm gonna die

My psychiatrist left I didn't want to say goodbye

Maybe I'm sick and I don't even know it

Getting bloodwork but it doesn't even show it

Checking my heart everything is all fine

Maybe I should try to go and get an MRI

I already went and I checked both eyes

And what do you know they are perfectly fine

Everything is coming back showing I'm healthy

But deep down I'm crying for someone to help me

Help me

I am so lonely

I'm falling down

When you're not around

Help me

I am so lonely

I'm falling down

When you're not around

It's a scary feeling 'cause depression always kills

But I'm tired of crying and taking pills

I'm trying to balance everything working and paying bills

And I'm trying to finish school so I can live up on the hills

Anxiety is creeping I'm sweating I'm in sauna

And then I'm looking back and I'm seeing it's from the trauma

I'm seeing all of the days I was bullied inside of Garner

And I'm seeing elementary crying and calling mama

Trying to keep the peace of my parents but they don't wanna

Getting a divorce and now I'm feeling like a goner

Everything is coming back I see it vividly it's sickening

I didn't even realize it was killing me

I'm twenty three

With no degree

I'm on my knees

I'm begging please

And people telling me that everybody has their reasoning

But every time I look at my life it is diminishing

And then I break a diet and I don't care what they're feeding me

It's making sense why I need help

I give my love to others I don't give it to myself

I give myself to cutters and it's so bad for my health

'Cause I'm giving everything I got to someone you can tell

I don't even know what I'll do if I wasn't me

It's pretty obvious I wear my heart up on my sleeve

But that is who I am nobody can ever change me

My heart is melting falling to my knees for you to

Help me

I am so lonely

I'm falling down

When you're not around

Help me

I am so lonely

I'm falling down

When you're not around

You're not around