Numb To Pain Lyrics

I so numb to pain, I so used to just getting hurt

Always was taught wish for the best, but expect the worst

And I was getting put last from people I was putting first

Can't let my heart be the reason I get put on a shirt

Experiencing pain from I was young, thought I was under a curse

It make me change, I ain't the same, I just moving cautious

Too solid, even though I get cross, I can't do no crossing

Can't be showing too much feelings, so I just gotta toss 'em

God help me through it all and I thank Him everyday 

And I be trying to make this rap blow in every way 

They tell me I can't do it and I gotta prove 'em wrong 

Put pain in every lyric, on every verse, in every song 

Stand out from niggas 'cause I know I wouldn't belong 

Ain't faking pain 'cause I was battling for long 

Had to live with the fact that I can't change people that did me wrong 

Real blood sweat and tears getting put inside the hustle 

Failure after failure, all I really could've do was fumble 

And I deserve every blessing 'cause I was very humble 

Built very tough because I always was taking a tumble 

Suicidal thoughts, I was really fighting off depression 

Never cut myself, but wanted to end it, 'cause I couldn't take it 

Tears in my eyes writing this, swear to God I cannot fake it

Shake back and I numb to all the pain that I was facing 

And I shed so much tears, I swear that I can't cry no more 

Remember days I didn't want go outside of the door 

And I can't see why people do me wrong, my intentions pure 

My dawg turn into a snake, and it hurt me to the core 

Nowadays shit happen and I just don't feel it no more 

Can't let nobody take advantage and just leave me no more 

And I get issues, can you hear my pain all through your speaker

And I learn things in life I never learn from no teacher 

The way I get lyrical, they thought I was a preacher

And I so numb to pain, I so used to just getting hurt

Always was taught wish for the best, but expect the worst

And I was getting put last from people I was putting first

Can't let my heart be the reason I get put on a shirt

Experiencing pain from I was young, thought I was under a curse

It make me change, I ain't the same, I just moving cautious

Too solid, even though I get cross, I can't do no crossing

Can't be showing too much feelings, so I just gotta toss 'em

Ice cubes in my chest, my heart gone, I done lost it

Real is rare, it ain't too much who keep it solid

These hoes did me dirty but it normal now

Can't be falling in love, that shit gon only slow me down

If I wasn't strong, the wind would've blow me down

But I so numb to the pain, I feel nothing now

Pain put me on my grind that give me a reason now

I being selfish, focused on me, this my season now

Gang

And I so numb to pain, I so used to just getting hurt

Always was taught wish for the best, but expect the worst

And I was getting put last from people I was putting first

Can't let my heart be the reason I get put on a shirt

Experiencing pain from I was young, thought I was under a curse

It make me change, I ain't the same, I just moving cautious

Too solid, even though I get cross, I can't do no crossing

Can't be showing too much feelings, so I just gotta toss 'em