Will It Ever End? Lyrics

And will ever end?

And will it ever end?

Cause I’ve been out here on my own

I’ve been tired, I’ve been cold

I’ve been numb to the feeling, it hurts in my soul

Will it end?

Will it ever end?

Numb to the feeling and I'm numb to the pain

Waking up everyday, not knowing what to say, or what to do

My mind slow, my words slurred, my eyes closed, my nights blurred

And I'm pretty sure that my soul has a puncture

Deeper than I can explain

Anxiety glued to my brain

No longer the wide eyed child that was excited for days

Now, I'm tryna survive

Used to be close to the vine

But now I'm left in the dust, looking up to the sky, wondering why?

And will ever end?

And will it ever end?

Cause I’ve been out here on my own

I’ve been tired, I’ve been cold

I’ve been numb to the feeling, it hurts in my soul

Will it end?

Will it ever end?

Have you left me?

I know that I've been living on my own, but have you left me?

Or is this just a test, cause I said "Lord, would you test me?"

And know my heart, I realize I'm just as dark as the sinners that I used to frown on

I'm looking in the mirror and I'm dressed with a filthy gown on

I mean, I knew that I was weak, I didn't know that I would break

I knew that I was mean, I didn't know that I was fake

And now I'm looking at the mirror at the real me

It's quite pathetic, and apathetic, I'm paralyzed and I'm paralytic

My fears feel like their parasitic, I'm feeling the judgment and I'm far from acquitted

I'm just trying to get through this life, but I feel like I'm quitting...

And will ever end?

And will it ever end?

Cause I’ve been out here on my own

I’ve been tired, I’ve been cold

I’ve been numb to the feeling, it hurts in my soul

Will it end?

Will it ever end?

I’ve been tryna drown it out,

Tryna drown the pain

Tryna drown myself

Tryna drown the shame

I’ve been running now, forgot how to stop so I’m running now

So tired, but I’m terrified if I stop running then thoughts will take over again and I don’t have the courage now

To step in the pain, and see my reflection

No longer the same, I don’t have direction

Wanting to change this is my confession

Alone and afraid, I need that connection

Somebody who really knows all of me

Somebody who really knows all of me

And chooses to love and embrace through the pain

Deep down I know there’s only one who can save

Me from myself

God I am drowning and I need help

I’m reaching out my hand, I don’t understand, but you promise that you can, so I’m reaching out again

Please...

And will it ever end?

And will it ever end?

And will it ever end?