XXX MM Lyrics

I’ve been solo for so long

I just ricochet off the walls

I’ve been the lone wolf for so long

I’m just tryna understand it all

I’ve been solo for so long

I’m just tryna understand it all

I been solo so I’m so low

And nobody figured out or knows though

But I’ve been thinking bout the end and how it goes though

Will I even ever have a sold out show bro

Cause nowadays I been in a damn mindset

Where I been looking for something I cannot find yet

I’m worried if I don’t make it by the time that

X did then my story just rewind X

I been damn scared

That he go bam there

And I die so young and no one ever damn cares

See I just want to build a legacy and step by step

I get more listeners but somehow I let

All the darker thoughts that somehow my mind kept

So I gotta be known fore in the light I’m checked

That’s why I’m payin tribute that’s why I like X

Cause he left a legacy he made em cry effects

Like that I’m tryna achieve, and I been tryna believe

For inspiration I’m looking and X’s mystery

To me he’s the sublime I hope I glisten G

And I been looking for something now that he’s missing G

I’ve been solo for so long

I just ricochet off the walls

I’ve been the lone wolf for so long

I’m just tryna understand it all

I’ve been solo for so long

I’m just tryna understand it all

Y’all tell me that the objects in the mirror are hellish

But I’ve been tryna heal and say self care ain’t selfish

But all of y’all still judge you don’t need it you’re perfecto

But y’all gave me hurt feelings and I dunno what’s next though

Imma build up my ladders to get out of the deep end

Until then imma keep on waiting for every damn weekend

Sometimes I feel l’m not real and I don’t know who I am

One last thing before y’all speak let me show you the program

So you know I’ve been all in my damn mind

Overthinking everything I’m tryna find

A way out to the innocence of damn 09

Cause back then I was happy I just want to rewind

But I just gotta realize

No matter how hard I try

Imma never erase the demons that hide so deep inside

Cause they always in there schemin tryna give me bad vibes

I just wanna know their meanin but hey I’m still alive

Barely so I’m in a place where I don’t know what to do

Man I can’t even write this song without questioning who you

Are writing this for Johnny Mac X or yourself to seem cool

Just to have a way so you can show that you’re depressed through

Hey I’ve been tryna get up but I just keep falling down

So I listen to Mac all for that positive sound

Then he died so damn young so I took a look around

Found new problems and I never learned to swim so I drowned

But I’m tryna come back from the deep trench that I’m in

Cause by his words I know that’s what Mac would’ve wanted

But I’m in a dark place and I’m not optimistic

And I know that he did it but I can’t get through tough hits, and

Its funny how people can change their old ways

Wanna keep doing it but its labeled as a phase

Cause based off their first impression they all see him as the same

And most people that affected think that they can never change

And I been going through that

But Mac didn’t do that

He evolved as a person and then everybody knew that

He was just like us he just kept it so real and true that

I related being someone with feelings and cool rap

So I no longer feel alone

Just to think that someone else

So respected and so grown

Could feel something like myself

Its like its a sign of hope

To think he was just like me

He done came up from his slopes

And ended with a legacy

So I’m paying tribute giving him what he deserves

Cause I connected to him through his truth and facts

Mac Imma tell you something: that from you I learned

That I keep swimming never drowning never going back

And I knew I’d come back from the deep trench that I’m in

Cause by his words I know that’s what Mac would’ve wanted

He was in that dark place but he was optimistic

So I know if he did it I can get through tough hits