Voices Lyrics

I remember kindergarten all the way to sixth grade

Whips on my body, bullied at a young age

Spit on, kicked on, labeled Special Ed

All because I cared about a person that I called my friend

“No one really likes you, your skin is too pale

Your body really stinks, your dad’s in jail

I’m glad he got deported, he never really loved you

Pushed you to the side, besides, who would love you”

“Go kill yourself, I’m happy you’ll be gone”

“You thought you could be big, but you will stay small”

“You’re just a big baby, go back and crawl”

“To your only mother who just wants to solve it all”

Take another whip, take another punch

You wanna get kicked more? Here’s another one”

“Listen to my voice, and listen to it well”

“Everyone will hate you, I hope you burn in hell”

Throughout my life, I’ve had this temptation

Of killing myself, tried it twice, couldn’t face it

The hood helped me, I really stuck my face in

The way the hood was working, but the serpent had awakened

The demons that would taunt me, gave me paranoia

Whispering right to me, “No one loves you, they don’t know ya”

My counselors had thought that I needed to take meds

Because something more darker got deep in my head

Writing on my notes, thinking of how I know

My mentality’s broken it’s something I cannot cope

Was like this all my life, I thought of it as a joke

But because of the bullying my temper’s been provoked

“Hey Lalo, my name’s Sin! How do you do my friend

Your dad’s still bugging you? Go stab him in the neck

Show him what you’re made of, you rather would pretend

To be another punk than to build your rep again”

Why are you here? “I really wanna kill you”

Wait, what did you just say? “I said I really do feel you”

Don’t you think that hurting someone’s just too extreme

“Man, he won’t even notice you, don't you trust in me”

“Grow up and be a man, follow your own plans”

“Forget what people tell you, I have you in my hands”

Nah I think I’m good for now, I’m lacking common sense

“Just wait and see, I’m coming for you again”

What the hell was that

I felt something grab me, throw me to my back

I felt this dark figure try to choke me and then laugh

Tears outta my eyes, screaming “GOD WHERE YOU AT”

The sounds of the thunder, the terrors of my screams

The fact that people still wouldn’t even believe me

Damn, and to think that someone I couldn’t see

Would be the one Person I needed to be freed

I was blind and now I do see

I didn’t before but now I do believe

Even in my sleep I was headed to my death

But now with God’s breath I finally do breathe

God was there, I just couldn’t tell

I didn’t want to trust in Him because my life was hell

But now I know well, now I see surely

That God wants me safe and I needed His mercy

After all the time, I now understood

That the times I was bullied and was trusted in the hood

It all makes sense, the sounds of the wicked

Were positions that the devil wanted me to be afflicted

But God intervened and clearly helped me

To make Himself known and clearly tell me

I truly understand that I have to make choices

Think of what I’m doing, ignoring the wrong voices