The Letter Lyrics

Hello, I'm sorry for not writing before 

But I'm hurting me to think of you

I'm older and stronger but still, I find myself

Leaning on your shoulders, peeking over boulders

People say to pick and choose what it is that I do

I say that's not for me, that's just how it is for you

Now storm clouds hovering over my head

Still, my sun is shining through

I've run questions again and again 

Over and over, racking my brain

Is it breakfast if you haven't slept in a week?

Are my eyes wet if I haven't wept?

If it's raining why is the sun shining through ?

Is a thought the same if I've thought it twice?

I've been struggling for so long trying to understand

Listening to the sounds of my own voice talking 

It is hard for me to stand when I cannot even kneel 

Now I'm left wondering if you were even real

Longer and longer now time has run while 

Still I stay

Stuck in the past

It's hurting me to think, to speak of you still

I've run questions again and again

Is my head spinning because the world is turning?

Does a sunset have color it I catch it black and white?

Are goodbyes good if they mean goodbye?

Is my song still good if I wrote it high?

Now I'm practicing speaking in words again

I'm learning just where I begin 

This letter to myself or is it to you?

I trust I know when it is through