Watching Everything I Love Die Lyrics

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Baby can you please stay

Need you tonight in the worst way

I know that's not always what

Always what my words say

You've been carrying us all this way

Heavy as the hurt weighs

Trying to change the frame as of late

"I am not unworthy of your love

I am your chosen form of joy and pain"

But this shadow body gotta dispute cause

All it can do is hate

Swear that I'll be better if you can wait

Someday

Hella hallelujah

Keep it holy

Hold it closely

And not too tightly

But you know me

Bird in the hand is better squeezed

If you can breathe then you can't leave

And I hate my anxiety but beautiful things

Gotta have room to spread wings

I've been clipping all these birds

And then wondering why the hurt

Was it my words?

My body: so much shame

I love your spirit and I'd rather

Fight my instincts than keep you in a cage

So hella hallelujah

Go your way

And if you come home then I'll say

Then I'll say say

Holy

Hold it holy and closely

And not too tightly

Holy

Hold it holy and closely

And not too tightly

Familiar feeling again

Try to atone

But on phone calls your tone falls

Into cadences that I so know

I'm about to be solo

I guess that I'll survive on my own

But honestly I wanted you more

I'm second-guessing my hope

Like that one line from the verse that opened

Wonder if deserving love actually applies

To the broken

We keep it unspoken but we know

I've made mistakes I don't think I've chosen

Am I the villain if I don't know it

Is our love like a door

A door that only closes

And when it's over is it curtains is it roses

My posture is poor

But I've been practicing my poses

Namaste I wish you'd stay

But no matter how hard I try

You don't notice

Hella hallelujah

Keep it holy

Hold it closely

And not too tightly

Here I am

December Twenty Ninth

Watching the best thing that I've ever had

Die from the sidelines

And that hurts because I

I'm so adjusted to the grind

For fighting it out all night

And maybe

That enthusiasm for speaking my anxious mind

Is the reason I'll be sleeping without you for at least a little while

So let's shine a light

Let's be honest

I have pre-emptively called this

And my mind has wandered back to

Bachelor ballers

I could drown in the pussy or the depths of Lion's Gate waters

Holy

Hold it holy and closely

And not too tightly

Holy

Hold it holy and closely

And not too tightly