LVST TIME Lyrics

I swear I've bin in this position before

I remember going down this road last time

I couldn't give her my all cos I was sick from withdrawals

That was probably round the same time my Aunt died

Feel like I'm talking to myself every time that I can't write

It's awkward when I talk about parts of my past life

Too many nights that I've bin in the dark, high by myself

I keep looking for light that I can't find

If there's no one I can trust who do I run to to help me?

Feeling like I'm fucked, I've been going through hell G

There's nothin in my cup and there ain't nothing you could sell me

I'm numb enough to feel nothing and done enough to last me ten years

Everybody's up in my ear

But I won't crumble under pressure and just buckle from fear

Know what it's like to wake up and see your mother in tears

Hoping she's fine but I know that she's been worried to live

And I try to talk to people but I swear that they don't listen

My eye was on the ball but all they cared about was dribbling

High enough to fall and it's your call if I did it

Yeah that might of been a thought if the ball was in your court

But the Ball is in my court so why the fuck am I tripping?

I was forced to walk away, they coulda called but they didn't

Could of called it quits then but I still called when I missed her

How'd I fall for this bitch or get caught in her pictures?

I wasted years of my life, I should of stuck with the rapping

Looking backwards I keep thinking how the fuck did I manage

I ain't going back to waking up and panicking

My heart on my sleeve and that's probably why a part of it's damaged

I got love for all my brothers and I'm lucky I had em

Half of these actors still make it so it can't be the passion

Just addicted to the drama and action

I could of been like those cats that I went halves in a bag with

Doin scattered shit to carry on like nothing had happened

Everyone around me struggles and their juggling habits

Start to panic when there's nothing but some dust in a packet

Stuck in the madness still acting like none of this matters

I was young but couldn't picture this, It's hard to imagine

Bennys still inside a prison, he's what started me rapping

Told me put my heart in this and then I can't just go backwards

Was only out a couple months until the judge put him back in