Antidote Lyrics

Church saying prayers sending hope to me

Saw the fear inside their eyes when they spoke to me

Never learned to cope so how they supposed to cope with me

Writing release the pain it's an antidote for me

Saw the pity in they face, what it told to me

Think I'm hurting but it's all just getting old to me

I can't blame you for the love you couldn't hold for me

Forget the love I just pray I see an older me

Fake a smile bet you they won't even notice it

Ain't been going through it, I've been getting over it

Say I'm young but I never thought I'd be old as this

That's why I act the way I do doin older shh

Aye

Sitting with that pain daily

Got to keep it pushing let these melodies save me

Thinking back on all them situations that have made me

Wouldn't trade a wound I love the lesson that it gave me

Behind every battle scar is a lesson

Doing what I can to get away from feelin less than

And on that wrong path just wanting the pain to lessen

Along the way started seeing life as a blessing

I'm winning cause I took the loss as motivation

I'm still learning about how to love and to be patient

Smoking make me normal, so I like that sensation

But I don't drink cause I see past that temptation

I hate the bottle cause my Papa couldn't shake it

Trying to break the cycle swear my heart been feeling vacant

They don't know crazy like I do swear they couldn't take it

I want to live a life for those who didn't make it

Forget the hatred

Make a name for my name Ima make it

I'm an artist hear the pictures that I painted

I'm tired of holding back I'm tired of the waiting

Tired of the waiting

I'm tired of the waiting, tired of the waiting

Mmm

I'm tired of the waiting, tired of the waiting

Yeah

Mmm

But Church saying prayers sending hope to me

Saw the fear inside their eyes when they spoke to me

Never learned to cope so how they supposed to cope with me

Writing release the pain it's an antidote for me

Saw the pity in they face, what it told to me

Think I'm hurting but it's all just getting old to me

I can't blame you for the love you couldn't hold for me

Forget the love I just pray I see an older me

Forget the love I just pray I see an older me

Heart of gold, but the pain made a colder me

"Keep going up" what he said what he told to me

I got a feeling that this loss ain't getting old to me

Moving on but it's only getting harder

Writing songs to keep my head above that water

Left behind every single time I caught up

Fell down 9 and 10 times got up

And 10 times got up, 10 times got up

And 10 times got up, 10 times got up

Yeah

But Church saying prayers sending hope to me

Saw the fear inside their eyes when they spoke to me

Never learned to cope so how they supposed to cope with me

Writing release the pain it's an antidote for me

Saw the pity in they face, what that told to me

Think I'm hurting but it's all just getting old to me

I can't blame you for the love you couldn't hold for me

Forget the love I just pray I see an older me

I pray I see an older me

And I just pray I see an older me

I pray I see an older me

I pray I see an older me