Closure Lyrics

I walked in the house to my grandma OD'ing

I'm screaming out help me she's not even breathing

Like Linda don't do this, wake up, please don't leave me

I can't fucking do this, grandma can you hear me

I shook her awake asking her about her meds

By now both her eyes in the back of her head

And she mumbling words I don't know what she said

Grandma get up please get out of the bed

And my heart racing I pull the phone out I'm dialing

911 help me, the voice on the other end

Asking me questions I could hardly answer

The fear and the anger now that was a factor

I'm paralyzed, terrified that it's too late

Open your mouth for it's really too late

She saved your life this is how you repay her

Speak the fuck up come on don't be a coward

I'm off of the phone now I'm shaking and trembling

Grandma what did you just do with your medicine

Asking her questions like what is my name

Or what is yours or who's to blame

I know that it's hard and you're always in pain

But you can't leave like this man this shit is insane

Somebody tell me where the fuck is the ambulance

Panicking, she's getting stiff like a mannequin

Knocks at the door and I'm sure they arrived

And they asking her questions with lights in her eyes

Now they asking me too and I feel under pressure

I look over now and she's up on the stretcher

I'm calling my dad and my uncle's like help me

I'm not even worried I'm just feeling empty

God please don't do this just take me instead

If only I knew this was the start of the end

Sometimes I feel like God made a mistake

Like he toys with our minds and he fucks with our faith

As he's testing our will or reviewing our strength

Writing the names of who go through the gates

But if I'm wrong then why'd he take Michael

There was no sign of a him as suicidal

So tell me right now how the hell did we miss it

I miss my brother I'll never forget him

Everyone gossiping, talking at school

Spreading rumors off of shit they assumed

Crowding his girlfriend all for the truth

Begging and harping like what did he do

Insensitive pricks would not let her free

I tried to be there for all of her needs

Suffocating there was no room to breathe

Clock was ticking there was no time to grieve

We went out for lunch and she told me what happened

She said it was suicide from the car accident

Now I'm stuck here conflicted confused

Like how the fuck you even process that news

And I tried to take mine and go straight to the booth

But no song was good enough that was my view

A week goes by and we're all at your funeral

I meet your parents for the very first time

We all say hello with tears in our eyes

Knowing no one was ready to say a goodbye

So many people that showed up were fake

They never knew you, they just knew your name

Man that shit killed me but I shrugged them off

God will judge them let em' know they were wrong

Jennifer, Jason, I loved your son

And I promise his memory will always live on