BASTARD Lyrics

Another day another episode

All this manic depression

Have a chicka mind gone

Couldn't find beauty in this world

If Rihanna was close

With every penny for these thoughts

I could've been blown

So many options for these problems

But a bitch ain't one

I'm always bout it even solid

Through my meltdowns

Been it since pops had thought he founded him the right one

Same thoughts that made me a product of repeated cycles

Uhh

I'm just a bastard baby

Maybe that's why I'm out here feeling like the world hate me

Got the devil on my back and still have yet to shake em

Can't trust a soul these niggas hoes and I ain't with the faking

When I'm in my woes I lose control

I'm on my worst behavior

Get on my knees and pray to jesus

But I ain't seen no saving

Just like my nigga with his triggers

I ain't seen no changing

He always beg me not to leave but it ain't worth no saving

I'm starting to think maybe it's me

I'm always hesitating

Thoughts in my head got me on edge

Doc prescribed medication

And Swear that shit

Ain't numb a thing

Had to try meditating

So I smoked me one and said my hums

And got to elevating

Mama hitting my phone

Please leave me alone

All that yelling in my ear

Talking bout I'm a clone

But when I look in the mirror

I don't recognize her either

Got me holding on the heater

About to be a cold season

On my toes on my defense

And I swear that be my weakness

In the middle of the legions

Tryna get closer to Jesus

In the mud without a shovel

Left me knee deep with my demons

Now my head upon a swivel

Cause I'm always overthinking

Thinking

Thinking

I'm just a bastard baby

Maybe that's why I'm out here feeling like the world hate me

Got the devil on my back and still have yet to shake em

Can't trust a soul these niggas hoes

And I ain't with the faking

When I'm in my woes I lose control

I'm on my worst behavior

Get on my knees and pray to jesus

But I ain't seen no saving

Just like my nigga with his triggers

I ain't seen no changing

He always beg me not to leave but it ain't worth no saving

Uhh uhh

Hey

He always escalate it

Then pin the blame on me

Like I'll believe what he be saying

He call me crazy

But that's just one of his mind games

All in each other's face

Like he ain't use to Be my baby

You spose to feel my pain

Not be the one to cut my veins

You always say you love me

I need you to illustrate

We on two different pages

I need you to pick up pace

We go from love to hate

But it's ok

I'm use to anger

You know cause

I'm just a bastard baby

Maybe that's why I'm out here feeling like the world hate me

Got the devil on my back and still have yet to shake em

Can't trust a soul these niggas hoes and I ain't with the faking

When I'm in my woes I lose control

I'm on my worst behavior

Get on my knees and pray to jesus

But I ain't seen no saving

Just like my nigga with his triggers

I ain't seen no changing

He always beg me not to leave but it ain't worth no saving

I'm just a bastard baby

Ain't got no plans

Just like my parents

When it came to me

Living in hell

Tryna propel

And keep my sanity

I think I failed

Inside my head

All this cacophony

I dread my sleep

Cause I just think

Bout all the things

That leave me weak

And on my knees

My broken home

Split family tree

No branch or leaves

My roots are poisoned

They telling me

We fail to peak

Cause we bad seeds

We on the news dead every week

By the hands of our own

Or crooked police

We can't have dreams

Cause we can't sleep

We slaved away

For masa's degrees

Success not easy

For none of my peeps

Be the same reason

They hugging the streets

They knowing it's danger

They stay with that piece

All fueled up with anger

Ain't gone be no peace

Especially

When Mama and daddy

Couldn't keep the peace

You see

Uhh

We just some bastard babies

Maybe that's why we out here feeling like the world hating

Getting by in the worse ways

And skipping education

Can't trust a soul

Don't know who'll fold

Cause niggas made like makeshift

Steady tryna let go

Get back control

Be on my best behavior

Cause I know Jesus watching me

And I could use some saving

Just like my nigga with his triggers

But ain't nothing changing

He steady beg me not to leave

And this time I ain't staying

I'm such a bastard baby

Maybe that's why I'm out here feeling like the world hate me

Got the devil on my back and still have yet to shake em

Can't trust a soul these niggas hoes

And I ain't with the faking

Naw