Hemingway Lyrics

What a year it's been, I'm on my knees

Living every moment in my head

If I have to face another day like this

I'll drink until I'm numb and sick

The world outside is burning and I'm too self absorbed to care

This year all my wanting turned to need

Nights I'd write and ache and bleed

In a melancholic rage

Trying to be Hemingway

Will she help me escape

All I want is her embrace

Can she hold me in her arms

Can I lay here till oblivion comes

I'm avoiding truths, I keep pretending

An addict to my thoughts and fantasies

I break myself beyond repair

Destroy my hopes, I rip and tear

I'm imploding in my self-loathing

Well I keep him locked up, the real me

The version no one ever sees

The outside world's become my cage

I sink so deep, I disengage

Will she help me escape

All I want is her embrace

Can she hold me in her arms

Can I lay here till the dawn

I succumb to what I crave

I feel the crash of every wave

I can't stand just to be

Will she love the ugly parts of me

Caught in my hedonistic, nihilistic self-destruction

I search for motivation, muses, mentors, inspiration

Could she love me if she knew

Would she stay and be my muse

Am I loved for who I am

Or am I wearing this mask again

Will she help me escape

All I want is her embrace

Can she hold me in her arms

Can I lay here till it's dawn

I succumb to what I crave

I feel the crash of every wave

I can't stand who I really am

Will she love me as a broken man