B(you)tiful Disaster Lyrics

Woke up deranged

On the wrong side of my brain

Angry at the world again

They're driving me insane

The same ones who claim to love me

Also love to hate the way I am

Man I wish I had you here

To save this day

I dissipate to dead weight

Invisible to those

Cold over social clones

Who chose to spectate

I regulate my intake

Or I'll end up like my ex date

Over dose on happiness

And then try to get my head straight

Levitate above the ground

Now I walk a different plane

With a smile on my face

Even though I'm not allowed

To hang out with the in crowd

Them cool kids who get down

After school they gather around

Imprisoned in this town

When almost doesn't count

But yr oh so close

And yr image doesn't fit the mold

So then you switch yr clothes

Broken home and broken soul

Equals to no spiritual

Just people

And evil rituals

I grew up believing only that based on reasoning

As human beings were misleading me from the real meaning

I'm all feeling taking long breathing patterns

Healing wounded thoughts that once hung shattered

I grew up believing only that based on reasoning

As human beings were misleading me from the real meaning

I'm god's offspring millions of years after

The first man to ever see this beautiful disaster

Can you even imagine

Life without light

Day with no night

Man without right

Frightened to believe the lies

That I've seen with open eyes

Lying beneath city heights

And deep between my lover's thighs

Inside her mind

Is where I always find my comfort zone

Dozing in and out of the moment

Knowing no one's home

To keep me company

Or at least a little occupied

Used to love to live for something

Til god died

Now I satisfy my hunger

By answering what I wonder

Asking where why when and how

Did I stem from a number

Summer left too soon

So I crawl back to my slumber

Another afternoon

Spent depressed under covers

Remembering November

When everything was so better and

The war between love and hate

Made us veterans

I'll never let her in again

No not even my friends

All of you forgiven

And this is where my letter ends

I grew up believing only that based on reasoning

As human beings were misleading me from the real meaning

I'm all feeling taking long breathing patterns

Healing wounded thoughts that once hung shattered

I grew up believing only that based on reasoning

As human beings were misleading me from the real meaning

I'm god's offspring millions of years after

The first man to ever see this beautiful

I grew up believing only that based on reasoning

As human beings were misleading me from the real meaning

I'm all feeling taking long breathing patterns

Healing wounded thoughts that once hung shattered

I grew up believing only that based on reasoning

As human beings were misleading me from the real meaning

I'm god's offspring millions of years after

The first man to ever see this beautiful disaster

Do you really think

That what you think even matters