Reflections Lyrics

Reflections - Lucidious

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Yeah, all of these songs that we create can't even scratch the surface

The reasons why we feel what we do why we write these verses

To be honest sometimes I don't even know why I'm writin'

I feel I'm torn between good and evil and I am frightened

Sometimes I pray to god, sometimes I say I hate him

Shit everyday I feel I'm living in an ultimatum

Been a couple years since I been to a church on a Sunday

And I keep on saying that I'ma figure it all out one day

But I know that I'm lying, and I know that I have sinned

And I know that I have pushed away every one of my friends

And I know that I have rage, I release it with this pen

I make a song and pretend that everything all makes sense, ha

People tell me they feel it

But part me just doesn't

I ask myself would I write this shit if nobody loved it

Well I don't have the answer

And even if I did

I'd still run my mind in circles and say it all again

I'm walking through the life that I been given and I'm hoping that I make it alright

Lookin' in the mirror tryin' to find the man I am nobody is in sight

I'm taking the only road that I know and I'm just hoping it'll all be alright

And when I fade away I just hope that you understand everything is alright

So, I find it funny I can write a problem 20 times

In a different way with a different word and say a different rhyme

But I keep on fighting this pain that I'm feeling deep inside

Pissed that I wasted my time and I'm pissed that I lost my mind

But every night that I try to sleep it seems I cannot find

A minute of peace but when I decease will they believe I tried

I need a relief but turn on the TV cannot believe my eyes and

What do we see they make us believe all of the deceiving lies

This was not the way that you were raised

Disrespectful and misbehaving

Why are you leaving I don't understand

Fankly I really don't give a damn

Father, you raised me well but I am my own man

I make my own mistakes, I'm doing what I can

People tell me they feel it

But part me just doesn't

I ask myself would I write this shit if nobody loved it

Well I don't have the answer

But even if I did

I'd still run my mind in circles and say it all again

I'm walking through the life that I been given and I'm hoping that I make it alright

Lookin' in the mirror tryin' to find the man I am nobody is in sight

I'm taking the only road that I know and I'm just hoping it'll all be alright

And when I fade away I just hope that you understand everything is alright

And at the end of the day we all make a sacrifice

We have to make a decision we gotta roll the dice

Man I hope I rolled it right, but I know if I rolled it wrong

My friends and family will be there the day that I get home

And when I'm all alone, you can find me writing these

Raps that I put together fighting my uncertainty

But certainly I cannot serve everyone perfectly

To those who have not heard of me I hope I earn your courtesy

Trust me I know its tough, at times we all get down

I felt this way for years, I just record it now

Ain't for the fame I'm doing this to make my family proud

And the love I feel when I'm on a stage and they are screaming loud

So when you're the feeling struggle and you're feeling the pain

You gotta know you're not the only one feeling this way

Follow me by my voice, won't you just take my hand

We'll make it through together one day we will understand

I'm walking through the life that I been given and I'm hoping that I make it alright

Lookin' in the mirror tryin' to find the man I am nobody is in sight

I'm taking the only road that I know and I'm just hoping it'll all be alright

And when I fade away I just hope that you understand everything is alright