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Finally unloading all this weight in ink

I'm confessing to myself

Gotta saviour within

Got dogs in my mind that'll bark if I don't let them out

Only I got the leash

I'mma cut this shit out

Who let this one out

Turned my burdens into stairs

Now I'm climbing the clouds

Used to pray in silence, now I speak my blessings out loud

Got the pillar of God in my spine

You can't crack me now

So many times I've questioned all the choices I made

When it didn't make sense, I would ask em again

Asking why, oh why won't make it happen again

I can't replay any moments, so I press play on my Focus

Sometimes I get backlash from the flashbacks

Of the times I drank too much, I couldn't pass that

Too lit to remember any memories

Taking all of them free shots cost me court fees

And I can't lie, battling with bottles left my heart dry

A cup full of errors, I was trynna get right

I lost a lot of people, and I was losing the fight

I lost a lot of sleep, and I was losing my mind

Felt lost in the night, hard to see a sunrise

Killing me softly, why am I killing me softly

I almost lost my life, this shit unreal

I realized losing myself is my greatest fear

Gotta show me love, I deserve it

I'm breaking down walls, I'm unlearning

Just give me a moment, I'm learning

How to lay low, and hold my own

I'm feeling all this space inside my home

I can't run away, I'm all I know

I'm healing me softly, I'm patching up nicely

This love feels so righteous, I know I deserve it

Forgiveness on my mind, and patience on my wounds

I can't sprint to Spring, cause I gotta fall to live through

Growing pains, leads to big blooms

Holding in pain, leads to big booms

When you're tired, find out what you got energy for

When you alone, find out who you want around more

By myself, I became my best company

Had to learn these contradicting lessons in pairs of three

Was I the hero for saving myself

Was I the damsel for being distressed

Was I the villain for causing the pain

All I gotta say is sorry self for all the pain