Scared to Be Optimistic Lyrics

I feel so high like I'm coming undone

Still got the reigns on me but I'm on the verge of breaking out

Of my own self-doubt

I'm kinda scared, why am I lowering my guard

When I know I'll most likely be left scarred

From what's ahead?

It only ends in shreds

So wake me up, I must be dreaming

'Cos it's too early to have this feeling

I'm kinda scared to be optimistic

Last time I was, my life went ballistic

I'm terrified to let go

And let my feelings show

'Cos if I do then I'll be chucking logic

She gives me butterflies, but it's only been 2 weeks

What if she reaches inside and gives my heart a squeeze

And bleeds it out

Filling me with more self-doubt?

Because it's happened before

I see it more and more

All around me in other people

Who can't see what's ahead

For them, it ends in shreds

You know sometimes I wish I wasn't autistic

'Cos maybe then I'd be more realistic

I'm kinda scared to be optimistic

Last time I was, my life went ballistic

I'm terrified to let go

And let my feelings show

'Cos if I do then I'll be chucking logic

Is it normal to be pessimistic?

To wish that life was just simplistic?

'Cos then I wouldn't let go

And get my feelings blown up

By a wish that isn't futuristic

But fuck it, I've gotta let go

If I can't move on then I'll never emote

And if it ends in shreds

I'll be alright in the end

I'm through with self-doubt

Because she's fucking amazing

And devastating

All at the same time

And while I may lose her

Or change my opinion

Right now, this is how I feel

I'm never scared to be optimistic

And I don't care if my life goes ballistic

I'm ready to let go

And let my feelings roll

And how I've missed just chucking logic

It's unhealthy to be pessimistic

Life's at its best when it's not simplistic

I'm ready to let go

And let my feelings roll

With whatever becomes futuristic

I'm ready to let go

And let my feelings roll

With whatever becomes futuristic