Addicted to the pain I know Lyrics

I've built a world inside my head,

Where you're better, where we're happy instead.

I see a version of you that could be,

But it's not the man standing in front of me.

You wear your pain like a badge on your sleeve,

And I keep hoping for things you don't believe.

I see your struggles, I want to pull you through,

But the truth is, you don't want it like I do.

And every time I try to make you see,

You slip away and it's breaking me.

I'm guarded, but I let you in,

Hoping for change where it's never been.

In my mind, I've built a life so true,

But it crumbles when I look at you.

I want to save you, but you won't save yourself,

You're taking my kindness and nothing else.

It's a lie I live, but I can't let go,

I'm addicted to the pain I know.

I've seen the battles you refuse to fight,

And I've stayed, thinking love could make it right.

I want to heal the cracks in your soul,

But you only take, you don't want to be whole.

I tell myself this could still be real,

But deep down, I know how you truly feel.

You're content in the hustle , the chaos you know,

And I'm just a lifeline you won't let grow.

I dream of a future, but it's all in my head,

A fantasy of us that's already dead.

I'm guarded, but I let you in,

Hoping for change where it's never been.

In my mind, I've built a life so true ,

But it crumbles when I look at you.

I want to save you, but you won't save yourself,

You're taking my kindness and nothing else.

It's a lie I live, but I can't let go,

I'm addicted to the pain I know.

I see the man you could become,

The battles won, the damage undone.

But you don't see it, you don't even try,

And I'm left here asking myself why.

Why do I hold on when you pull away?

Why do I hope when you choose to stay the same?

I'm guarded, but I let you in,

Hoping for change where it's never been.

In my mind, I've built a life so true,

But it crumbles when I look at you.

I want to save you, but you won't save yourself,

You're taking my kindness and nothing else.

It's a lie I live, but I can't let go,

I'm addicted to the pain I know.

I'm trapped in this dream that I made for us,

Hoping for love, but losing my trust.

You don't want the change I see in my mind,

And I'm left here wishing I could rewind.

I want to let go, but I'm tied to the flame,