What Killed Me Lyrics

I can take the silence—God knows I'm drowning

I can take the weight of a world still frowning

But I can't take the way the air holds your face

Like you never even left this place

I let the world believe I've healed

But grief's a wound that never seals

And some nights I choke on your name

But it dies in me just the same

What killed me most

Wasn't the day you left my side

It's the years I stood swallowing pride

I swore I saw you hesitate

But love was never mine to take

I live where all our echoes break

An empty shell your hands once shaped

It's cruel how dawn still breaks the sky

When my whole world was your goodbye

And it's hell—watching strangers breathe

While I waste away where your presence bleeds

Still worse the weight of passing time

Where I still wake up calling you mine

And I should've quit

Yeah I should've quit

If I could go back break myself wide

Carve out my chest show what's inside

I'd scream my love tear down my pride

But now I die with words denied

What killed me most

Wasn't just the loss of you

It was losing the man who once knew

I thought love burned fierce and bright

Now I know it's slow silent night

Ohhh

And I should've quit

Yeah I should've quit

What kills me now

Is waking up but you don't

Not in my arms not even close

Not even in dreams not even in thought

Not even in pain where once we fought

And that's the worst part the final disgrace

I saw you yesterday—you looked at my face

Not love not pain not even regret

Just a stranger as if we'd never met

And that's what finally killed me dead

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