Sickness Lyrics

I'm still tryna let you go and live my life in peace

I can't even name how many times that I sit back and watch you leave

Damn, what I gotta do

Beg you please, you're supposed to have my seat

That promise that you made is what I need, way too out of reach

I ain't never had no problems, show my love in that curfew

Livin' in this world without that girl, what I'm supposed to do

This bitch I'm layin' with just ain't it or them other two

My brother tellin' me, boy, you ain't shit, this is not good

I just left Miami with that Hammond and a Deku suit

And you knowin' that I'm damaged, but I handle it with my crew

Tell me who you fuckin, who you lovin' so I can pop that fool

Yeah, right now, cause I play the game by my rules

If I can go right back in time, that's the first thing I do

Whoever thought for all them years before, I'd still be the one to lose

Know I'm a sinner, but I still remember them late nights in school

Made it through college, but I ain't gain knowledge, I'm the biggest fool

Talkin' with your mama, shit like sometimes you gotta let it go

How the fuck I'ma follow up with that when you got my soul

I'm the only one that stayed down and stuck to the code

I don't give a damn how many hoes around, they gotta go

Mine, nah, for real, and they know it

You always tryna ask me what has changed, and I'm showin' it

All that extra shit come with my name, really blowin' me

And I'm steady tryna show what I can bring, but you ignorin' it

I used to say, do you feel how I feel

Run away from all that love that come your way, but I don't think you see it clear

And I used to dream about you on them pills

And I ain't never cried about it

But these songs I make, them the loudest tears

I think my feelings of sickness, for real

I gotta leave it right here

I might need to disappear

To focus on my career

Spendin' one night instead of years

I done spent my whole life inside the field

I'm the only one that stayed down and stuck to the code

I don't give a damn how many hoes around, they gotta go

Mine, nah, for real, and they know it

You always tryna ask me what has changed, and I'm showin' it

All that extra shit come with my name, really blowin' me

And I'm steady tryna show what I can bring, but you ignorin' it

I used to dream about you on them pills

And I ain't never cried about it

But these songs I make, them the loudest tears