Behind the smile Lyrics

They say the brightest smiles hide the darkest thoughts

And sometimes surviving another day is all we can do

For those who raised us, and those we now raise

Breakfast table, morning light

Hide the shadows of the night

Mother calls with hopeful tone

While kids play on their own"Yes, I'm fine" - the daily lie

As their laughter passes by

Every smile a heavy mask

Living through this endless task

Till the weight becomes too much

Drowning in the crystal sea

Waves of pain consuming me

But I smile to keep them safe

While my soul begins to chafe

How much longer can I breathe?

'Fore the darkness sets me free

Father's dreams upon my head

Like a crown of burning lead

Little arms around my waist

While inside I slowly waste

Can't let down their hopes and prayers

Though I'm drowning on the stairs

Watch them trust with innocent eyes

All believe my perfect lies

When the darkness feels like home

Sometimes in the dead of night

When the pain becomes too bright

Watch my children peaceful sleep

While these demons make me weep

Would my parents understand?

Why I can't reach for their hand

Would my kids forgive someday?

Why their father went away

Trapped between love and release

Pack their lunches, brush their hair

While inside burns dark despair

Parents' pride and children's joy

Both depend on this decoy

Love them more than life itself

Yet I'm dying on this shelf

Every kiss that we exchange

Adds more guilt than I can name

Till truth must break us all

The cruelest part isn't the pain we feel

But knowing our absence would echo through generations

Forward through our children's future, backward through our parents' past.