What Hurts The Most Are The Moments I Wish Were Forgotten Forever Lyrics

Lost my grandma in '24

I asked what I'm for

And I didn't get a reply

I always told that boys don't cry

Got addicted, and I couldn't go a second without getting high

Got it in my pockets, getting by

I hacked the system like Watch Dogs

They all criticize the songs

But did you even bother to ask yourself

What I was going through, but that don't matter

No, not at all

There's a reason why I built them walls

And why I ignored them calls

Fuck, you don't know how much I would do to see myself in the ground

Smoke a pound, and bury myself seven feet down

Suicidal, and you know I zone out

Feel it in my bones, how?

Three months ago, I was normal

Bring me back, through a portal

When you talk to me, you talk to a self critic

Hate the fake rats talkin' down, cause I'm spittin

And when they see me dead they'll all act they cared

But an hour ago they said I was the worst, scary

I ain't tryna act cool, I was for real pulled into a trap

And I couldn't get out, yeah that's facts

The realest homies I ever had was Rowdy and Chase

I get as high as I can like I'm in space

I don't give a fuck what it is, long as I feel a thing

I remember when that bitch begged me for a ring

Now I'm making $200 a beat, while I rap and sing

Give it a minute for the dream, bitch