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My ex boyfriend said he would kill himself if he wasn't with me, I call him my ex because he's gone

I've been feeling grief for 2 months now

Every time I wake up, I just wanna end my life Every time I wake up, all I do is fucking cry

Yeah, grab a knife out the kitchen, put to my wrist and cut it, nice

Yeah you said you want nothing to do with me, then why you keep calling my line

Yeah, this the first time in a long while I talk about some real shit

Just wanna OD of a X, and a HHC, and a perky just to finish it

When I open up my eyes, I get mad, yeah I didn't die

Tryna play with my emotions, call me up three times, what that say about you

Blocked yo ass on everything, believing shit that ain't even true

You said you know what I been through, it ain't nice, but you did it too

What you mean? What they say? What they tryna see

What you heard? I OD'd wanna fall asleep

I left they asses in the past and I ain't even look back

Gave me a book on how to get rich and I just put that shit in my book bag

Yeah, I dont fuck with mudsharks, I close the door when I see that

I've been battling all these thoughts inside my head its a boxing fight

When I get high, I try to forget everything

Grab a box of pills and shove it down my throat, but it ain't working

Are listening to what I'm saying, I ain't screaming I ain't shouting

Yeah, I'm crying out for help, I got my hand out no one helping

Every time I wake up, I just wanna end my life Every time I wake up, all I do is fucking cry

Yeah, grab a knife out the kitchen, put to my wrist and cut it, nice

Yeah you said you want nothing to do with me, then why you keep calling my line

Yeah, this the first time in a long while I talk about some real shit

Just wanna OD of a X, and a HHC, and a perky just to finish it

When I open up my eyes, I get mad, yeah I didn't die

Tryna play with my emotions, call me up three times, what that say about you

I've lost loved ones and I've also had friends that struggle significantly with grief

But, I can never tell those friends, that

I am often very suicidal

I maintain this sunny disposition, to hide what I've been going through, but

As they're coping with loss, I'm coping with the effects that

Losing my own life, might have on their life