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I dont wanna die but I don't wanna live

I wanna be alone got nothing left to give

I wanna forgive but I cant forget

All the times you've told my dont you wont leave my stranded

Now I'm all alone you left me empty handed

All the gifts I got you that you never helded

First you stole my soul then my heart like a bandit

Fixed my heart then pilled off like a bandaid

If you came back to me i wont let anyone near

Please stand back you oh damn became my fear

Excuse my mind you when you left it became unclear

When your with me you make all my worries dissappear

Yhen the demons just appear

I feel them getting near

Wasted all my tears

Accepted all my sins

A list of thing that I won't do

1. Have a wife I wanted it to be you

2. Having problems connecting to someone new

3. Never let anyone see the drawing I drew

I've been stuck in my head cant escape like its glue

Poisoned me broke me didnt do something new

Now your stuck on my heart like tattoo

Feel like I dont wanna live

Feel like got nothing left to give

I just, want someone to tell me they love me

And be real, I just wanna love me

Problems with my heart, think the demons got me

Can't feel my body, feel like a dummy, ohh

Oh, oh ,oh oh pain got me slow

Breaking me down, taking me slow

Oh no, oh no, time to go

My mind gonna blow

Got 10 seconds till next time ima fall, here comes my time

10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1

Oh no, hmmmm