disaster girl (idalia lives!) Lyrics

I wither

A dried and scabbing gash

The problem trolley turns all my ambitions into ash

It's the needs of the couple

Stacked against the needs of one

Our mouths around the barrel

Of a sugar coated loaded gun

So hit me

I am weak pathetic prey

My mind and body soften at anything you have to say

You might make me forget

That this all has to end

If you give me another drink

And you tell me we're more than friends

Oh, the bottom of my glass

Is the farthest I can see

But I still think I'm right for you

And I think you're right for me

Drive the daggers on your earrings

Straight into my crooked spine

I know how bad it hurts you hearing

That it happens all the time

I preach and I postulate

I act like I deserve

You'd think after all the times I've failed

I would've fucking learned

But the way you stared half out the door

Only made me need you more

Idalia is weeping, but the wind will keep the score

My walls are finally melting, but I am rotten to the core

Trouble's what you get if it's what you go looking for

I do and deny

Then I cringe when I cry

But to you, my sweet superlative

I'd never ever lie

You are glistening and golden

In a whole different league

From selfish and skittish and sterile old me

If you really love me

Then you'll hate this song

You'll grab me by the neck

And you'll tell me that I'm wrong

That you won't end up just like everyone else

Choke me to sleep and make sure of it yourself

Down my legs

And down the drain

The blood I spill is spelling your name

Fuck me until I forget that I'm sharing

Your promises, body, and strained, whispered swearing

You won't tell your friends, you won't change your world

What did I expect

I'm just your disaster girl

You can keep me a secret

For as long as you want

You can have anyone in the world

But you're the only one I've got

I'm a socially stunted agoraphobe

And I think I'm the love of your life

But I can read it in your passing tones

I make a better mistress than wife

Darling, I really don't mind

If you mean it when you say you're mine

Everything's totally fine

Everything's totally fine

Everything is totally fine

I swear that everything is totally fine