I’m not really laughing (Special Version) Lyrics

Behind the laughter, there's hidden pain

A lonely heart that no one can explain

Times with you feel like distant dreams

I smile to forget, or so it seems

I'm not really laughing, my heart is sore

I don't want you to see this anymore

The wounds inside me are buried deep

Since I lost you, my world can't sleep

Feels like I'm left all alone in this place

Memories of you tearing me up, it's a race

Every single day, I wear this fake smile

But inside I'm empty, missing you all the while

In the mirror, I see a mask, it's a lie

Nobody knows the pain hidden deep inside

Come back to me, you were my heartbeat

Without you here, I'm lost on this street

Staying busy all day long

But in my heart, it feels so wrong

Walking through streets, your face appears

Pretending I'm fine, but I'm drowning in tears

I'm not really laughing, my heart is sore

I don't want you to see this anymore

The wounds inside me are buried deep

Since I lost you, my world can't sleep

Who will see the real me inside?

The loneliness I try to hide

Can we go back to where we were?

Those moments with you were my only cure

I'm not really laughing, my heart is sore

I don't want you to see this anymore

The wounds inside me are buried deep

Since I lost you, my world can't sleep.