Culmination Lyrics

I have so much fucking baggage soldered onto me

I don't think I've been the same since the first when I was fifteen

Every interaction is the cause of some bizarre anxiety

Every communication is confessing before you say goodbye to me

New relationships consume my very existence

The worries within making it feel like a hindrance

I break the promise to live normally and demons become visitors

Doubt and unprocessed grief claiming it's vengeance

The only time I ever feel freedom is when my soul is unattached

Before I make the mistake of letting it form an unbreakable latch

Forgetting the problems previous possessions had

Missing the connection without my psyche being abnormally bad

I thought I wanted to go back to the former dynamic

Every unhealthy thought pattern says I'm not over it

I considered chasing closure before I wanted to avoid the pit

Am i avoiding being restrained or am I avoiding the anxiety within?

Is the isolation worth the loneliness that it brings?

Is avoidance less of an action and more symptomatic?

I'd be bothered that she's taken but I don't want her either

How can I feel jealousy when I just want myself in the picture

I should have left when a death sentence sounded like 'forever'

I should've ran when communication became not when but never

The thing I keep swearing to avoid is a fundamental necessity

Is it possible to avoid the human urge of your flawed hierarchy

As much as it contributed maybe it's what's best for me

Each self reflection makes it clear how much I need therapy

I've spent so much time waiting for a message that won't come

The ending finally arrived and it will never be undone

Any pathetic feeling died when I let you back from the setting sun

All I need is a justification to affirm that I was the person who won

I thought I wanted to go back to the former dynamic

Every unhealthy thought pattern says I'm not over it

I considered chasing closure before I wanted to avoid the pit

Am i avoiding being restrained or am I avoiding the anxiety within?

Is the isolation worth the loneliness that it brings?

Is avoidance less of an action and more symptomatic?

I thought I wanted to go back to the former dynamic

Every unhealthy thought pattern says I'm not over it

I considered chasing closure before I wanted to avoid the pit

Am i avoiding being restrained or am I avoiding the anxiety within?