Not There Yet Lyrics

Sitting in my car outside your place

About to cancel our plans again

Cause even breathing feels like work these days

And I can barely hold my own hand

Let alone hold someone else's dreams

And I see the love you're giving me

But I can't give what I don't feel for me

I'm not there yet, I'm not there yet

Still learning how to be a friend to myself

And baby it kills me but I know

I got nothing left to give, nothing left to show

When I can barely keep my own heart beating

I'm not there yet, I'm just not there yet

You deserve someone who is grounded

Not these scattered pieces of me

I've got appointments with my therapist

And empty journals still to be filled

Before I can be anybody's shelter

So believe me, believe me when I say

It's not that I don't want to try

I just can't give you all of me when I'm running dry

I'm not there yet, I'm not there yet

Still learning how to be a friend to myself

And baby it kills me but I know

I got nothing left to give, nothing left to show

When I can barely keep my own heart beating

I'm not there yet, I'm just not there yet

It would be so easy to let you in

Let you patch up all these holes

But that ain't love, that's just running

From the work I need to do alone

From the work I need to do alone

I'm not there yet, I'm not there yet

Still learning how to be a friend to myself

And baby it kills me but I know

I got nothing left to give, nothing left to show

When I can barely keep my own heart beating

I'm not there yet, I'm just not there yet

The kindest thing I can do

Is to tell you the truth

That I'm still building my own home

And I can't invite you in

'Til I know how to live there myself

I'm not there yet, I'm not there yet

Still learning how to be a friend to myself

And baby it kills me but I know

I got nothing left to give, nothing left to show

Maybe someday I'll be ready to let you in

But I'm not there yet

I'm just not there yet